I have many repeated thoughts most concern something negative that I've done in the past that weighs in my conscious and the other thoughts are just questions.

Instances of times that I did wrong will replay in my mind and I guess they always will randomly reoccur until I apologize, correct my wrongdoings, or somehow find closure or peace.

I often question my position in life and think "Am I in limbo or am I where I need to be at this moment in my life? "

And I have trouble reading people at times so I'll find myself thinking "Are they really genuine?"

Victory against all odds

Against this thing in my blood

It swims

Bloodier than blood

Dies daily

bit by bit

Slowly returning

back to blood

blood on blood

i watch my bloody soul drain

as

the vampires fill the glass vials

into shiny tubes of hope

they smile finding the fat juicy vein

stabbing the wiggling nightcrawler under my skin

as the needle penetrates

i think to myself

"Victory"

There's a ruining thought that persuades me to believe that everything I see does not exist. It leads me to believe that there is only dark and nothingness beyond this very moment, and the light is just an illusion made within my own mind. As soon as I feel that there is no hope, the light bursts through and rips me from the deep, and the lost hope swallows me into a warm, comforting place that gives my wildest dreams a chance.