Compulsive Unraveling
It starts with a line—
half-heard, half-felt,
like a song stuck in your teeth.
You write it down,
just to shut it up.
But the line pulls another,
then another,
like thread yanked from a sweater
you didn’t mean to ruin.
Now it’s a hole,
and you’re picking at it
because what else are you supposed to do?
Before long, you’re knee-deep
in metaphors that don’t quite land,
chasing some truth
that slips sideways every time you blink.
You call it poetry.
It calls you restless.
You write until your brain
feels scraped clean,
like maybe you’ve won
or at least outrun the worst of it.
But quiet never lasts.
Another line hums,
and you’re back at it—
pulling, unraveling,
telling yourself it’s fine,
you’ll patch it up later.
My Sculpture
I shape this nearly empty body
And the self within –
Molding, squeezing, pushing, pulling,
Creating the woman I long to be.
The clay is stubborn,
And I don’t have full control;
Family, friends, media, limitations –
Influence and change my shape.
For better? For worse?
I’m not sure I know.
I can only hope that my sculpture
Will be worthy of my pride.
One Man’s Scraps Are Another Man’s Poem
Abstract ideas flitter about in my brain
like butterflies navigating a stiff August breeze.
I try unifying them into something,
a patchwork quilt of grandiose dreams
showcasing profound thoughts
that I feel are worthy of sharing
with strangers and sycophants,
maniacs and mentally sound,
downtrodden and dignitaries,
paupers and princesses
in hopes of making a lasting impression
that will forever change their lives.
But before unveiling my work to the world,
I scrutinize the stitching,
then question the pattern.
Thinking that it’s not good enough,
that it requires further alterations,
I tear apart the finished piece.
Quickly I discover that it can’t be resewn,
reassembled
or recreated.
What was once coherent,
vibrant,
profound,
now lies in ruin.
These scraps of doubt then entomb me.
Unable to manipulate the fabric,
I remain immobilized
by a misguided attempt
to cover my perceived imperfections
and bury my profound neurosis
so my frail ego
will be shielded from nonexistent ridicule.
Gray
I sit in the gray night
Gifted goosebumps from the gale
Monotone in delight
Whooshing winds wind and whistle
Soothing a mind most contrite
Breathing breezes and bores
Hopeful of being in the right
Life lies within learning lessons
Yet application takes might
Beyond the brick barrier brightens
I no longer feel so tight
Coming to conclusions consistently
Beyond what's black and white
My brain hums with scraps of poetry and madness
Hums, hums like the background music
Like a kazoo being played by a child
The child I once was, maybe, back when i could play a harmonica
Knew the words to every Taylor Swift song
That was the poetry of my youth
We were both young when I first you
Close my eyes and the flashback starts, I’m standing there, on a balcony in summer air, see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns…
But she was lyrics and I wrote poetry too in my youth
I write as though a quarter century isn't still youth
As though the fears weighing me down are anything…
Scraps of madness, I have plenty to spare
Just, no take backs if you decide what madness was taken was too much
No rest for the wicked, after all
And I long for sleep.
Take some of my scraps, the mind will replenish them in dreams
maybe good writing will break free tomorrow
Sowing what.
So,What’s up?
Up is a direction,usually upwards.
What‘s that supposed to mean!?
That,is used to indicate a person,thing,or idea.
Why are you talking like this?What is it?
It,means to refer to a thing,animal,situation,or idea.
what!?
You asked me what,it means.
I answered three of your questions.
Anymore questions?
No!!
Let me ask you a question?
Whats that?
You already asked me that question.