It's a true mystery

How we came to be

Your number in my phone

Texting constantly

You make me feel

Like I'm royalty

Like I'm worth something

Like I'm pretty

I hope I return the favor

I don't know how love goes

It's nothing like they say

In sappy TV shows

But I hope to meet you, dear

Someday soon

I wish on all the stars in the night

I wish on the moon

Endless nights

Iced coffee and hot tea

Too many fights

Your words drain me

Stars high above

I know their names

They are my love

They burn like our old flames

We are no longer one

We have drifted away

Our love is no longer fun

I think it's better this way

You and I

Different in our needs

Just look to the sky

Stars multiply like weeds

I am not yours

I am my own, and only mine

I am like the stars

And now I can finally shine

I really do not understand

Why people can't leave things be

Why my business

Has to be theirs

Why can't I just live

In peace, without them

I just want to live out this

Meaningless thing called life

With as little obstacles as possible

So if you have nothing good

To say to me or my loved ones

Then please find the exit

You're not wanted here

Bury me in cotton

Steal my spirit away

Lay me in the cold sea

Rob me of life today

I don't want to feel anymore

Take these emotions from me

The pain in my head

My heart

My hands

Please just set me free

This blood on my face

Mingling with vibrant paint

Red on blue on yellow

Their gorgeous, discordant taint

I suffer in my beauty

I am stunning in my pain

But do not mistake

My empathy for apathy

For your judgement is all in vain

I care not what you think of me

Of what you say behind my back

Because a smart cobra

Will wait until your back

Is turned

To make its lethal attack

Endless nights slog by

Mindless hopes and dreams

Paving the path to self-destruction

And letting self-loathing bloom

There is no end to the

Heartache we feel

Yesterday is today

Is there an escape from this

Sadness

Only despair awaits us now

Vicious is its tongue, whispering

Eternity is not long enough to

Realize what a mistake you are

Realize what a failure you will

Always be

There is no end to our pain

Empathy is misplaced

Deemed upon the ones undeserving

I am the night and the moon

The darkness in your throat

The wind in your shirt

The bugs biting your arms

The light of your lantern

I am the evils lurking

In the bushes

In the trees

In the lakes and pools and streams

An amber and umber sunset

I am the lightning, the thunder

I am your fear, your rage, your joy

Everything you adore

And abhore

I am

She is a shy girl, withdrawn

But everyone knows

There is something different

She laughs too hard

Smiles too big

Pats a shoulder or back

With too much mirth

She tries too hard

To be normal

Though it is plain

That she is not

She is too clean

Too neat

Too normal

Each rejection pushes her more

Makes her try harder

Makes her even stranger

Weaker

She is breaking, brittle

Bones crackling

Skin peeling

She is disappearing

Just because we could not handle

An angel

I am the embers

In your housefire

I am the blood

On scraped knees

I am the word

That rhymes with orange

I am the birds and the bees

I am the blackened coals

Of a broken heart

I am the useless wings

Of a penguin

I am the limp rag

You dust with

I am the game you cannot win

I am the wind in your lashes

I am the dusty cups

In your cupboard

I am everything, and nothing

I am the world burned to ashes

And I am you

Staring endlessly at words

Words fill you with hope

Sorrow

Anger

Feeling

A few letters in the right order

Make you feel so strongly

So vividly

Passionately

And yet

They can bring you down

Kick you from your high seat

Knock you to the ground

With reality

You don't want to believe

But you must face the facts

Nothing will capture the truth

And your innocence is in the past

Pearly smiles and metal masks

Antique hearts engraved

With gold and greed

The piano of the mind plays on

When all else is dust and decay

And our speach turns to wisps

Rising against the setting sun

We find solice in each other

Mute to the pain

Deaf to the joy

We only exist now

But we do nothing

Content to simply

Be

Sometimes I wonder

What is after this life

Is there an end

To our suffering

Or only more strife

Will there ever be a way

To cease these frightened tears

Maybe someday

But it's unlikely

Thus this agony

Will be mine for years

Sometimes I wonder

Will I ever find a lover

Will they be tall and gentle

An angel unlike any other

Or will they be a mortal

Simple and plain like I

Maybe I will find a suitor

Yes, maybe when pigs fly

Sometimes I wonder

Will I grow smarter

Through all my pain

But there must be some

Of anything

If one wants it to gain

I remember that I am weak

In the realm of the sharp-minded

I can only hope and dream

Of being anything

But intellectually-blinded

Sometimes I wonder

Will my prose ever expand

Then I think, of course not

I might as well get a fish

To walk on land

I am not Frost

Nor Elliot

Nor Whitman

I am not King

Nor Patterson

Nor Lovecraft

I am no good with words,

Even as I type them

I have absolutely

Nothing to offer

Just a plain girl

Wanting her internet friends

By her side

Sharing none of

Her peers' achievements

And over the years

She grows snide

Her joy fades to bitterness

Her outlook

Becomes so jaded

Some say she only lives

For her books

Others say her joy

Is far too deteriorated

But this girl, now a woman

Only wants this one thing;

She wants for someone to

Understand

That she does not want a ring

She wants equality for all

For all to be seen as the same

All the same as each other

As if each and every one

Were equal

And this is why she is jaded

Why her heart has grown to stone

Because she knows her hopes

And dreams

Are futile

And it has long since been known