You know that moment when it all finally sinks in. It's like a kick in the gut. Truly knowing deep within the secrets of your heart that it's over. Then realizing your the cause of it all. But, how can you be when no answer as to why this happened is given? Somehow he maneuvers you into thinking it was all your actions that led us here, and he owes you nothing. It's in this moment when you realize you have to stop fighting for something that is now lost in a sea of once was. A pain that drives deep into our insecurities. Where nothing else seems to matter. You look up and its as if time has stopped. When does it reset and carry on, or will it ever? It's in that moment where you must make a choice. To either rise above the despair that has encumbered itself upon you. Or to give in and linger on in a silent graveyard filled with past woes.

Wind blows from the east

Bringing in new life

Crisp sounds blow from the west

Accompanied as adventure

It comes and goes with haste just as time

Circulating through the rise and setting of the sun

New beginnings associated with new ends

Yet never intertwined till morning rise began

Searched by every person

Though never grasped by a single hand

Established in every heart

Without knowing it till all is done

Windsw returning from the north

Winds departing from the south

Anticipation grows and dies

For the returning and withdrawal of the new light

Would it last?

Could it last?

Time would tell,

Anticipation would prove to be more than what it's worth

Can I have a moment, no

I fear that if I stop I will not be able to get back up

Everything from his side stays hidden in the shadows

So, when I cry or need a moment no one knows, so I keep going

Sometimes I try to stop

I try to understand what happen or what I did

But my thoughts fall silent as the greave

I’m not sure if I can ever trust him again

Why won’t my heart let go

Why can’t I recognize it will never happen

Why isn’t hope fleeing

Why won’t the pain stop

Maybe it is because of everything we went through, I mean a years time

Maybe I am holding on to something that is not there

Maybe there is a 1% chance and i keep fighting

Maybe it is because I choose not to let go

When do you reach that point of letting go

How can the heart say goodbye

No matter how hard I try he does not leave my heart

I fear he never will

The movement of a friendship

The excitement

The ups and downs

The twist and turns

Something new arrived

A feeling hard to describe

Truth or a lie

Was it moving too fast

Wanting to know more

Who was he?

What does he like dislike?

What are his interest?

There was something different

Falling for the way he cares

Falling for his eyes

The way he slipped into my heart

Counting away the minutes

Till the next moment

The next touch

The next sound of his voice

How to communicate?

How to speak?

What to communicate?

What to speak?

He's done something

He inspired me

Reminded me of a secret

Deep down in my heart

Uncertainty and fear

Wondering if it's real

All this begins to grow

Then I decide to give him my heart

Nonsense... is it good or bad. Being in love is nonsense to everyone except the two people who are in it. For her situation this was the case. So their love was nonsense to everyone but them.

What is it that caused her to take that leap? The answer hides within his eyes. Only she can see it. If you're lucky enough though to catch a glimpse then you'll see it too. What will you see? You'll see in his eyes the love he had for her. A look of wow, a look of admiration. Now if your in the right place at the right time you can catch her smiling, and for a moment you'll see the love she carries for him. Some might not understand, but that's the consequence of falling in love.

Safety and security is what she found in him. She felt loved, safe, and secure with him wasn't that enough? Yet, a time apart was needed so the two could grow. Time would tell of the events that will become. She waits, and grows, and comes to a halt on this journey. Life goes on just as it has and always will. On this long road once in a while a rare opportunity is given, that chance is called starting over

Some might see this as agony while others long for it. That's all she wants, to start over. Erase all the mistakes and uproars and begin again. What will he say? Will he approve, deny, or embrace it? She first must fulfill her destiny before the question can be asked and answered. A question that when asked, will silence fall?

Although she tries not to concern herself with that for now because there are greater things ahead.

The wait comes to a close, or rather is opened to a new realm. One where a small amount of communication can occur but a distance separates the two. It's not what one would expect, when reunited. She thought being together again would ignite the promise they had made to each other from the very beginning. Unfortunately being apart for so long had become the new normal and while she did not know it yet, he was already gone. Do they dare to take the plunge and try again? Is it worth the risk? How did he simply forget everything they once were? Did time apart destroy a love that could have burnered forever? Or do they both agree to leave it all behind and walk away?

Being who she was before him, and thriving in a life apart. It was supposed to be a good thing but following the rules can tug on and change a heart. While it was right, she dare not open her heart, because what if he breaks it again. Yet there's something in his demeanor that has changed. He is different and so is she. It's a new journey and a new road, but how did he forget all those promises he made to her, and everything he shared with her?

I guess he just did.........

You can't live in the past because if you do you'll never move ahead and you will miss out on what's in store for you right now. Maybe that's what a break in a relationship is meant to be. Acknowledging the past relationship and realizing we don't forget, but we don't stay there either. Move on look at who you are now, embrace the now, and look forward to the future. Even if that means leaving a love you thought would last forever.

Sometimes you must go through a storm in order to awaken the truth. When the truth is awoken people must make a decision. Or not maybe the truth falls into a sea of silence. Yet, if it is never dealt with how does one move on? Do we linger on in a false reality. Or accept what is, and address something once forgotten or something we have chosen to forget. But, what if we dare to embrace the truth and move forward with this new found knowledge. Many times change is hard and can hurt but if we don't than how can we truly ever move forward? I know especially when it comes to love finding out the truth can do great damage to ones heart. I think it does both, it offers relief but also brings heartache. That's what truth is relief and heartache. It's how we handle the truth that determines where we go.

Love is a promise

It is not an emotion, it's a principal

Feelings come and go

When the curtain falls what is left

Yet hope remains for a true love

Many perceive love as being on air

Timeless, Endless

With stability gravity fell and stood

This is the love that survives storms

It bore the gruesome summer heat

The blustering blizzards of winter

Never will it falter or fail

Unspoken between two people

Silence, strengthens or breaks love

Star lit skies awaken

A pursuit, a passion, a promise