Stop and Breathe

Can I have a moment, no

I fear that if I stop I will not be able to get back up

Everything from his side stays hidden in the shadows

So, when I cry or need a moment no one knows, so I keep going

Sometimes I try to stop

I try to understand what happen or what I did

But my thoughts fall silent as the greave

I’m not sure if I can ever trust him again

Why won’t my heart let go

Why can’t I recognize it will never happen

Why isn’t hope fleeing

Why won’t the pain stop

Maybe it is because of everything we went through, I mean a years time

Maybe I am holding on to something that is not there

Maybe there is a 1% chance and i keep fighting

Maybe it is because I choose not to let go

When do you reach that point of letting go

How can the heart say goodbye

No matter how hard I try he does not leave my heart

I fear he never will