Everyday
Every day I try to scream but nothing comes out but tears.
Tears are my fears.
I will cry every day in my room feeling pain
The ones that I regret or the ones that hurt.
Blood on the floor so sore.
If I wish I could fix my life without a knife
Stuck thinking that I will be better but no
I’m so cold
without you im lost
so ashamed no one wants to care
so fragile no one can break the tears in my heart
so strong that my love is dared
My heart is ripped apart
regret sits in my hands like a broken glass
Im so broken that you're worth everything
I think about you every day feeling sad
regretting what we had
hurting my self so i can get rid of pain
I'm broken constantly because of you
I will cry everyday till I die
because of you i'm bleeding
Have you ever thought that you stabbed me
You gave me pain
You changed my life
I wish i can fix everything without a knife in my soul
Dont look down but theres the life you had
the one where you wish love isn't used for pain
I wanna scream but nothing comes out except tears and fears
help me be the person i want to be
change me to be happy
My heart feels like it’s torn in two
Why can't I just be with you?
Everyday another tear
Everyday a lot more fear
I want to hold you in my arms
I want to keep you safe from The pain
I want you to feel my pain
I can see the pain in your eyes from the hurt in your heart
and I'd really love to fix it just don't know where to start
Every time you let me in a little you shut me right back out
I hate that everyday you don't care
you shut my out and let me bleed
You let me die
Feeling ur pain is like a knife in my heart
you made me bleed
You want me to die
Everyday i will feel pain till i die
falling for you was a mistake
Instead i wish i died first
my tears all over me and fears on the floor
want to look in ur eyes and tell u i hate you
but no cause i'm too broke
too exhausted from the pain
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
I couldn’t open my eyes
I was pacing back and forth all night
I think I found light at the end
I couldn't find the truth
Im going under
I cant breath
Regret
Every day I try to scream but nothing comes out but tears
Tears that are my fears
I will cry everyday in my room feeling pain
The ones that I regret or the ones that hurt
If I wish I could fix my life without a knife
Stuck thinking that I will be better without you
So ashamed no one can bare to look
So fragile no one can break the tears in my heart
So strong that my love is dared
My heart is ripped apart
Regret sits in my hands like a broken glass
I’m broken that you're worth everything
Regretting what we had
Hurting myself so I can get rid of the pain
I'm broken constantly because of you
Because of you I'm bleeding
Have you ever thought that you stabbed me
You gave me pain
You changed my life
I wish I can fix everything without a knife in my soul
Don't look down but there's the life you had
The one where you wish love isn't used for pain
I wanna scream but nothing comes out except tears and fears
My heart feels like it’s torn in two
Why can't I just be with you?
Everyday another tear
Everyday a lot more fears
I want you to feel my pain
I hate that everyday you don't care
You shut me out
Feeling your pain is like a knife in my heart
Falling for you was a mistake
My tears all over me and fears on the floor
Want to look in YOUR eyes and tell you i hate you
too exhausted from the pain
Thank You
One day I will look back and think about my troubles.
You were the one who literally saved me from my worst.
I thank you for never giving up on me.
When everything crumbles
You were the first
To see
Memories keep playing in my head over and over
Reminding me how disappointed you were.
Reminding me how worried you were and confused.
Until I let myself lean on your shoulders
I wasn’t sure I would make it for sure
For the first time I wasn't amused.
You would ask me "how are you doing?"
I would say I'm fine
as tears start to form in my eyes
You know I wasn’t just fooling.
You knew it was a sign
As the tears shift to full on cry
The day I lost my friend you were there.
I didn’t know how to move on
I was hurting from in and out
As you stared
This was no fun
I never pout
You are the meaning of strength
at its highest peak.
You have courage
when the rest of us are weak.
You inspire me
to live for the now.
And to never give up
You have no idea
about the effect you've made
and with the lessons I've learned
my life's made a change.
Not just a change
But also a growth.
You help me through it all
coming to save me every time I fall
If I could say one word that wouldn't
tell it all
Thank you!
The Day
The day when I first bumped into you was the day I lost myself.
It was a place where I saw my better days.
When I first took a glimpse at your eyes.
I loved to hold you close
We were something.
We were inseparable
Nothing could stop us until you know something did.
It was war.
The day I have held her in my arms was the day I thought I could love strong.
Instead it turned into the worst war.
It was paradise until you met the darkness.
We met our eyes after the first dance.
The unknown was not what I expected.
I don’t regret knowing but I regret falling for the darkness.
The day we hung out and knew each other more.
More and more trust. More and more feelings.
You know a lot of history is hard to get over.
Push after push reality came to play.
The day I knew what was true
New years came to play.
Sleepover
My heart thumps thumps
Felt like someone punching me in the gut
Dance after dance
Kiss after kiss.
Guy after guy.
Seeing the reality in your eyes.
Hurt from inside and out
What to say or think
The day It got worse
Day after day
Things change
Lie after lie
push after push
fight after fight
Rumor after rumor
Things escalated
Feelings hurting more
Lost my self that day.
The day I came back to fix things was the day I never thought would hurt me more
Laughter and all the smiles gone
You ripped my heart out.
You pushed me more and more
Some days I hate you
Some days I still love you
When you threw away what you gave to me
The day you made everyway possible to hate me
The day you called
My hopes were high
Everything turned to calling me the worst thing
Everybody was right about her reality
The day I realized that you were not worth none of my time.
The Unknown Darkness
Breathing slowly
Putting my hands around my head
Processing this whole thing
Realizing my friend could be in some trouble
The issues of finding the reality
Begin to think of your honest opinion
Remembering your last words
What am I supposed to do?
You're gone.. She’s in the hospital
The memories sitting there
The regrets seep into my soul
Old memories drowning me
The lost of hope
Faith nearly gone
Do I just stand there?
Burning slowly
Deep thoughts
Blood splooging everywhere
I take a step back
You came to smash it all
What we got to lose
We came to be successful
One, Two, Three
Bamb, Bamb
In the black tucks
Two down
Bamb
three down
Screaming
Horror
Heart beats faster and faster
One, two, tick, tick,
“Everyone get down”
10 People down
Running
the terror
When You grab onto her hand
Notice that she got shot
What do I do
My heart pounds
The tears coming out
Grabbing onto my body and pulling me
The darkness inside pulling me into the deepness of her soul
Shaking
Scared of what might die inside
Walk around in circles
Gun in front of me
Stare at it for a moment
He comes over
Both hesitating to grab it
Screaming
Crying
We go after it
He grabs the gun
Bamb
next thing you know he’s down
dead
The horror
Done
She bleeding in my hands
I cry and suddenly had this feeling of loss
Fighting
Parents yelling
I cry
Shocked
The darkness grabs my soul
Something grabs me
My heart bleeding
Down on my knees
Stabbed
Soulless
Broken into many unknown pieces
My Inspiration
You are the meaning of strength
at its highest peak.
You have courage
when the rest of us are weak.
You inspire me
to live for the now.
And to never give up
Because you don't know how.
I've learned from you
why family comes first.
it's because when you need them,
they're there when you hurt.
No matter the pain
It all hurts the same.
And family you can count on
to always remain.
When the road gets rocky
you seem to take each bump
and walk over them smoothly
hump after hump.
You have no idea
about the effect you've made
and with the lessons I've learned
my life's made a change.
Not just a change
But also a growth.
Selfish
Saw those words slip out of my hands.
Slowly my heart rips apart.
Hold me down.
Sneaking out through my back bone.
Knock me out.
Saying you don't want more.
Watching me drown.
The demons coming out of my soul.
The feelings burns away.
I tried to hold these secrets inside me.
Colder than this hole.
Meaner than these demons.