Can we see the stars one more time

Can I feel your hand in mine

Brush your hair behind your ear

Wipe your cheek to get rid of the tears

I’m holding my breath in the life we live

It’s getting harder to move and harder to give

I want to keep the smile on my face

But you make it hard to stay the same

I can still remember the thoughts I’ve seen

To grip the steering wheel and pull it off the street

Still more thoughts clouding my mind

Like the rope wrapped around my neck... one more time

The wrong questions are being asked nowadays

How can I go on?

Will that fall kill me?

How long can I hold my breath?

I know these aren’t the words I should say

To be alone is to feel nothing at all

No more feeling my daughter crawl

Waking up in the middle of the night without sleep

Staring at the pink pacifier lying next to me where she would be

The empty bed still feels like home

This is how it’s been all along

I’ve wasted so many days doing nothing at all

Coming home to sleep and dream of my fall

When I wake up it’s like everything is dull

There’s not a word to describe it except null

One more dance, one more kiss, one more time to hold you close to me

Call me honey, call me your sweet boy, call me when you cry

Hate is too strong of a word for everything that’s been done

I am weak at my knees and yet I still admit you were the one

Take the hot water, let’s fall asleep at 6:00 when I get home

Anything to avoid the argument that would leave me alone

Dark ceilings, loud music, this is what goes on in my life

Cold liquor, no sleep, wonder what’s on the agenda tonight

The sandman pounds my eyes with his magical sand

If you can get me to sleep I hope the next day you can again

I didn’t look for anything and then I found you

It made sense to me and finally I had a clue

Love isn’t blind you can find it if you try

Love isn’t hard you can keep it.. your whole life

- C.W.

I've never been one to quit

I don't like taking anyone for granted

Humble as I am hesitant I am not

I've hit the ground and fallen a lot

Landed on my face and still I crawl

Searching for the answer through it all

The light begins to fade yet I still see the end

Believing this is just another dream with my friend

Death and life

A wonderful strife

Ended with the knife

More than one way

To take the pain

An endless slumber as I hang

Emotionless I contemplate

Am I worth it to be your soul mate

I am nothing but a man

Who's eyes are on a bigger plan

Now I feel like I am drowning in my hate

But I'm just so soft and fucking delicate

I'm close to the edge ready to break

Broken heart shattered scars may be too late

No repairing just remembering that I rectify my mistake

Hold my bearing break my borders and deviate

Cut the ties of the lies and take the truth to town

Slip my soul and take my cold savoring the sanctuary of solitude to drown

Can I have a moment to explain what I made?

Throw my life and quit my words stop me like a grenade

I know down inside you truly don't give a shit

But my body is so fragile and my heart is delicate

- C.W.

I remember when you used to love me

It was my chest your head was on to hear my heartbeat

It was my fingers locked with yours

And I had the key to all the doors

You said you were in the moment

You know you could've owned it

My chest hurts every single day

I wish death could take the pain away

A curse I don't wish on my worst enemy

An undying love for the one without feeling

You stole my heart and took my breath with one kiss

Under the oath of god I swore and your love I will miss

I'm a carefree soul I can't help it

I'm a dedicated hopeless romantic

Another day in and the ache is here again

This isn't life.. this is Death Without Pain

- C.W.

I just want to feel happy

I want to feel safe

I need you here

You're my escape

I don't understand what I should do

I'm always caught back loving you

Being confused has a whole new meaning

When you walk away my heart stops beating

Cascade through my soul you see my heart isn't there

If you look down in the palm of your hand you'll see why I care

I've lost my mind so many times

But I still find myself doing what I think is right

I've lost my way I'm out of touch

I need this day it's just not enough

My heartbeat doesn't make a sound

You've got me spinning like a merry go round

I'll always carry on my face this frown

When I used to wear a crown

I just wish I could drown

Jack save me, Jim be my hero

Captain make me forget what happened long ago

I need my Bud or a touch of miller

Something to make me drunk quicker

I just want to stop feeling alone

Please give me a fill of patron

Listen to all the things I've said

I just want to drink you dead

Take a shovel and take some sticks

Dig a hole and make a cross with it

Good morning I smell the havoc

But I'm not done with this shit

I'm breaking down like a little bitch

Falling higher than the Empire State Building

I contemplate if this life is worth living

I ask my past self is the match worth burning

I still feel the real deal spinning the wheel of fortune

Kicking my ass while I'm down pending my own doom

Broken and scared I build my walls of my safe room

I couldn't care less what others think of me too

All I know is stepping on my face is all you can do

Whatever happened to being sweet?

Now you bring it back and you come off as mean

I see what you see I breathe what you breathe

Not anymore the dirt is being poured so bury me

Caving in I feel my family start to get disappointed

This is the rule I try to break to null and void it

I captivate the minds around me making them dumbfounded

You don't know how it

Happens this way

No one knows what to say

When the pain won't go away

It gets worse everyday

And I feel my time slip away

You can't tell me how to live my life

Cut it off like the sharpness of a knife

This year I've lost more than my wife

I want to run away and hide

Feel my heart break the pride

Still I'm stuck here wondering why

When the time flies

And my eyes cry

I'm still lost with the cost of my time I'll never get back

I'm supposed to be the boss but got double crossed feeling the attack

Like a captain on the ship call it mutiny

Throw me in the casket and bury me

As a man I have to admit

It's hard to stop and hard to quit

Any habits I have are difficult to let go

It's probably more than you will ever know

Let me just take a quick second

I'll explain myself to you

I've made some adjustments

Some would say I'm brand new

The words I used to say

Those hurtful things that came from my mouth

They'll never cross my lips again

I put my words on time out

Ignoring you or doing things other than with you

That's subject to change as well

I'm not the same man and I know what I want to do

If it's me you'll be with it won't be hell

No more saying "I don't feel like it" this time

If you want to see the world then I'll stand by your side

I'll hold your hand

Go to places we've never been

Scout places and see new sights

As long as you are mine

We will do things we never did before

Go to different locations to explore

I don't want to argue

I don't want to fight

I want to be with you

And make things alright

If you want to get all the hot water

Then I promise I won't bother

So long as you and I are together

Nothing else really matters

If you want to go to bed early

I'll kiss you and say don't worry

Early fall early rise

Makes a man healthy and wise

A lot of things are going through my mind in my brain

Just know that loving you and being with you I'm subject.. to change

Welcome to the new me

You'll find things you've never seen

A polite side with a gentlemans attitude

No more acting like a kid so rude

Give my new heart a chance and you'll see

I'm right where I need both of us to be

I love you Amber

Come back to me

-C.W.

I can't help but to hear

The question ringing in my ear

Women ask it all the time

But don't want to read the rhyme

Do nice guys finish last?

I'll lay down the answer real fast

Why should we even enter the race?

I hope you kiss him and it's her lips you taste

I try to be the best I can

But you don't see the man I am

You just want what's gold and shining

But the true angel lends you the shoulder for crying

I break my back every time you need help

It's my fault, partially, for going through this hell

Take back what did you wrong

This time I won't wait so long

Ever heard of a booty call?

When you want some release and that's all?

Well you treat me like a community friend

Come to me with your problems and then

Ask me what I think of the guy

But you get mad and all I ask is why

Stop crying about getting hurt again

When it happens twice I won't be your friend

I'll break the silence real quick

Like I want to break his neck

To all the girls who seem to think we aren't here

Nice guys are right under your nose but your vision isn't clear

Take these words as an act of sentiment

I mean you the best.. signed The Gentleman

-C.W.

You know my name not my story

But what's really more important

Letting me go has taken its toll

Not on you but in my soul

I'm ready for my coffin

Lock it

Lose the key

It's my time to leave

An unending curse is on me

The reaper is all I see

Before you shut the door

Cause you can't take it anymore

Remember who fought to settle the score

You aren't here with me

My eyes have gone blind

I'm running out of time

I can't escape my mind

Your eyes still haunt me

Am I worth saving?

Your love is what I'm craving

It might seem crazy

But you're the only one for me

And now you've pushed me outside

I can feel my mind going in a blitz

A ticking clock that sounds like this

Tick tock tick tock tick

It's stopped and ignorance is bliss

Should've realized you were catastrophic

I kiss your cheek

To feel my heartbeat

You light a fire in me

One no one else sees

Words killing me softly

I draw pictures with the ceiling

It makes me lose all feeling

To make my own story looking up

I see real life just wasn't good enough

So I'll make my own happy ending

With the fairytale, princess, and dragon

I'll be the knight with the sword and shield

But I'm not rescuing you from what I fear

All these feelings make me sick

You're so catastrophic..

Restless nights

Tiring days

Falling apart

In my ways

Drifting, or pulling

I won't know

Not until May 5th

When your decision shows

Countless nights spent wide awake

Take this pain away for heavens sake

I love you I need you I don't want this to end

Take us back to our lives let's start over again

I lay my head down to rest

Waiting for you is the ultimate test

I cannot begin to comprehend

Letting you slip away again

7 days left in this choice

Whether or not I get to be yours

Matters so much more

Than you'll ever know or

Now I feel dead inside

I never feel alive

I just wanna run away and hide

But my thoughts coincide

And like a child I begin to cry

I'll tell you why

Your love is fading and I sigh

I keep it all bottled up, my pride

Never forget how hard I tried

Like the snake with the prey he finds

I just need you by my side

You're in the shotgun seat when we ride

Now it's like you left me behind

Keep in mind

This is Day Five...

-C.W

I write when I'm upset

That's all the time now

Even when I need rest

I can't sleep unless I hear your voice

I can't live this life knowing I'm not yours

I miss holding your hand and kissing your cheek

I love when you get mad but not too angry

Mainly, it's because you're cute when you're mad

Exactly, just like looking at a two year old and I'm glad

Passionately, I'll kiss you so that mad doesn't turn to sad

Emotionally, I'll hold you through the good times and bad

The three words I swore to you

Never bore a burden only told the truth

I only want to make our love anew

Three years have passed since we started this journey

Living with you and giving birth to our sweet baby

Fighting and making up makes our hearts more lovely

Loose lips sink ships

But I know this

Close yours and give me a kiss

Do this and our problems will be fixed

Step into my shoes, do a little switch

You'll know how much the pain in my heart makes me itch

I shouldn't have let you walk through that door

None of that matters anymore

You're the one I want to adore

I never sleep my body stays sore

My heart aches with a pain I can't ignore

But I keep my head up and don't give up before...

I realize.. this is Day Four..

-C.W