jump face first onto hard cement

go swimming in a pool of acid

rip the hair out off my skull

cut all of my limbs off

burn myself alive

it still wouldnt

compare to

the pain

you

caused

me when

you said that

you didn't love

me anymore and

you found someone

new whos prettier and

funnier and nicer and more

than i could ever try to become

ill never get you back and I'll never be good enough for a perfect boy....

They say smoking is gross

but i do it anyway

They say smoking kills

but im not afraid of death

They say smoking is to look cool

but i dont look cool

They say smoking is illegal

but i dont mind rebellion

Its not that bad

trust me

-im scared to get close-

-i hate being alone-

-i long for that feeling-

-to not feel at all-

-the higher i get-

-the lower i sink-

-i cant drown my demons-

-they know to swim-

After 9pm

I get scared

Not because of monsters

Not because of the dark

But of myself

For night is when I start thinking

Night is when my head starts shuffling

Through everything

Everything unhappy

I get scared

Of what I might do

Each night is a struggle. I am literally haunted by myself

By 11pm I practically go insane

uncontrollable sobs clog my nostrils with snot as I try to calm my rapid breathing

I wish that was the worst part. But my night has only just begun.

I really hate night.

Without hesitation, front porch step. They're an all acoustic band. Literally front porch step calms me down, yet makes me cry at the same time.

His songs on the album "aware" are so deep and so well thought out, that I just WISH everyone knew about him.

I can't even explain how much these songs mean to me, and I relate to every single one with like my heart.

I've seen him perform once in concert and let me tell you. When you see your all time favorite band play live, and you're the only person there that knows every single word, it's the best feeling in the world. The song "drown" is so freaking perfect, anyone who doesn't know front porch step like needs to.

I see you standing there, and your eyes are unaware that I've been staring at them all night wishing the brain behind them cared

about the way you make me feel or how your smile makes me nervous or how the fact that you exist

makes me feel like I have a purpose

I'm sick of lying in your bed while you are out of town

you say you want me for a friend

I hope you know I hate that sound

but I will bite my tongue because I hate when you're pissed off but you should know I need your touch like falling rain on thirsty crops

Damn you stupid boy why won't you drop your guard?

the space between our lips is bound to break my ever aching heart

and I am sure

that you will never find a girl that is ever going to love you more

so why won't you love me?