Maybe I should go back in time.

Tell every person what's on my mind.

Say sorry to the Lord for doing the crime.

Be true to yourself, God isn't blind.

We all mess up once and a while.

When it all hits the fan, keep it on file.

Tell it to God and let him know you're sorry.

Sincerely, dearly, Lord forgive me.

He hears you and always has your hand.

To guide and protect you, help you stand.

After all, who takes the guilt all alone?

Not me, not you, God is always on the phone.

He'll listen and reply- tell him your issue.

Don't be surprised if your grabbing a tissue.

Crying is okay, it's good for a day.

God works with us, he'll show you the way.

He's the best listener you'll ever meet.

And then responds by moving your feet.

Forward, keep going, God has a plan.

Don't look down, God says "you always can."

The guilt that you're feeling is forever okay.

If you give it to God it won't hurt every day. Guilt is just a feeling we all have some day.

But it's the way you handle the guilt on your day.

Be proud and give away your guilt, God is waiting.

Now open your mouth and forgive yourself for waiting.

I was talking to Granny

A little while ago

When I realized I was talking crazy

About a man I used to know.

You're my one and only dad

For the rest of my days

I used to always be so sad

Had the constant urge to blaze.

I see what's going on inside and out

You've got people who care

There's no reason to pout.

So what "life's not fair."

God is always here.

He told me to help you, I'll always care

I'm the key to your truth, do you hear?

Who woulda thunk? Me of all people

I resented your actions and personable nature

But couldn't deny what was said there at the steeple

This is EASY, not binomial nomenclature

Kingdom, phylum, class, we can do this together.

God gave you a gift, I'm not sure you see it.

He gave you steel hands and strength because you need it.

Cars are your passion and specialty forever.

Drugs aren't the way to heal yourself, never.

I see what you're doing but I see what you've done.

You're capable of so much, there's no need to run.

I believe in you for the first time ever.

100% I got your back I will never

Give in, give up, not try, or quit.

You must promise the same and recommit.

I rejected you before and now I'm making amends.

You've got a life with much more, if you ever need a friend

I'm your daughter, I'm here.

I want you to steer

Your life in a direction you know is clear.

When hope runs out and you're near an end

Look up to the sky, you'll hear a good friend.

This is his plan for you, not mine.

I'm just the messenger with a design.

You've got a garage full of tools

Never thought you belonged amongst bar fools

Take your knowledge and build a production

You've got everything you need, just some reconstruction

Of yourself and priorities, I know you want more

For yourself and granny than ever before.

You got this, you're great, you've got hope, it's restored.

God changed my life forever in every way possible

I'm not sure how, it just wasn't stoppable.

Open your eyes and open your heart

You know how I felt about God from the start.

Thought it was bullshit, a game to play.

But now you hear me, I always pray.

I believe in you dad and all you can do.

I pray for you constantly that you'll see it too.

Drugs aren't the way and drinking isn't either.

Sit down if your troubles, pray and take a breather.

Or give me a call, I'll support you whenever.

I'm with you on this journey, your biggest endeavor.

Single file down the hall. 

Lines

Down 3rd base, foul ball.

Lines

of coke for everyone, that's a long haul. 

Lines

represent connections, we must heal all. 

My dad always talked with empty promises

A new bike and cool toys, I tried to stay positive

Never understood liquor until that first sip

Dad always said "screw all the courtship"

3 different mamas and 4 different babies

Always was a man who looked for the ladies

Never were his children put before a lil cup

I don't need someone toxic like my father

Who's addicted to liquor and sleeping away

All feelings of remorse or guilt he can't handle

I was a kid with a voice, you missed my big 18th day

Prison didn't change you

I'm losing gumption as I go

All I wanted was a daddy, what happened to that yo?

Mama raised me strong, thank God for that

I just wish you could have been there

For all the things we had to go through

Me and my brother and little sisters too

We had it pretty good but always lacked you

Not having a daddy is hard on a youngin

I pray everyday, it's better for my children

Help is here, now please go and take this journey

There is a better life you can love, I hope you heard me

God, someone.. Please change this man

I wish he saw help when it was grabbing his hand

He's in a struggle, please pull him aboard

He needs more than help now, I trust in you Lord.

I never prayed or said I would be gracious

I'm good on my own, God isn't gracious

My life was a mess and I found a focus

Struggling in class God told me "FOCUS."

I didn't want to believe, tried to fight

God saw me battling, he said "look for light"

I cried for days, not understanding this life

Then God came to my shoulder that very night

I swear he was there right next to me

Telling me to keep going, "I am your key"

But I'm alone in this world, what's going on?

He was right in my ear, telling me to keep on

Life doesn't have to be something you dread

If you don't listen to me, it's all in YOUR head

I'm here to listen and here to reply

You are my child and I love you, you can fly

Use the wings I provide to overcome

I'm not here for looks, you don't need the rum

Trust in me fully and you will fulfill

My plan for you dear; your dream I can hear

Let's do this together, the best team around

If I got God on my side, I've already been found.

My thoughts are wild

Sometimes I can't think

My mind speaks so loud

I'm always on the brink

Of breaking and happiness

Bipolar maybe?

Or is it this world making madness

Consume me?

But I'm never alone why do I feel it?

My honey right beside me but I don't want it?

Push and shove I wanna be alone

No I don't, my thoughts always roam

Why is happiness such a hard task?

Figure of my imagination,

But look at all the smiling faces..

It's only me struggling to look that happy

Believing in yourself is the first step

Reality is much more than sappy

Books and novels can only portray

A life full of perfection

My life is far from that

I guess I'm happy, that's how it's gotta be

Growing up with no daddy, it happens a lot

to everyone around me, did he get shot?

Nobody knows, just trying not to worry...

Daddy won't be home tonight.. I gotta hurry

Out of this place, he doesn't even care

Trying to love my dad but he won't share

Smokes his weed to himself to deal with agony

Let's smoke it together, find a little harmony

Nope, you made the choice, I'm peacin out

"ASSHOLE" from the top of my lungs, I shout

I never needed you so why did I attempt to make you see what I saw?

I thought you were worth it but that's the last straw

You really messed up, peace out I'm gone...