Helpless

The tugging at

my heart,

Harder than before,

Like someone had

Punched,

Kicked,

Shot and

Stabbed it.

Seeing you with another,

Something that I can't stand

But I keep a smile on my face

Every time you hold her hand

Every time you tell her how beautiful she is.

No matter how strong the pain,

No matter how much I want to cry,

I will smile

I will stay by your side,

Like nothing is wrong.

The world will go on,

Oblivious to my heartbreak

I will watch you and her

You with her

Smiling,

Crying on the inside

Slowly falling apart

But still I will smile for you

You won't ever know

How I feel

I won't be able to take your rejection

You'll just give up on me anyways

I'm not like her

I'm not as pretty

I'm not as lovely

We would never have worked out

But I still cry at night

I still think of you

You and me,

You with me.

I'm losing my mind

I'm breaking

But you will never see it

I'll still wear that smile on my face.