premature apologies

i am sorry to

everyone who has ever been close to me

because i am aware

of the destruction i bring

i am aware of that dark cloud

that follows me aroung

time to time

and seems to never leave

i am aware of the moments

where i make it as if

it's the end of the world

and a snake

slithers out of my mouth

and around your neck like a noose

i do not mean to

i know you know that

for the first words i say

when i lay eyes

is i'm sorry.