i don’t care about you but

i will built up the confidence

i will have the courage

and you will stare when you see me walk through those doors

because i will carry myself in such a way

that every head will turn in awe and disbelievement

then you

who follows your beloved crowd like a sheep in a herd

will have no where to look at but me.

three years

and three words

always said alone in

empty halls and whispered in code

during classes

help me give them up

we are so alike

but rather than seeing

how much similar we are

us as creatures

pick apart at everything

that makes us different

i promise her

i would never write again

because they will find it

and i will be hurt when they do

but once again i am drawn to words

like a moth towards light

and a cartoon bear towards honey

i don't care about you but

i have built up the confidence

i have the courage

and not only do you stare when you see me walk through those doors

you follow me where i sit and get on your

hands and knees like

the bitch you are

no longer do you follow your beloved crowd like a sheep in a herd

instead you follow me.

but unfortunately for you

i no longer give free handouts.

childish is what you are

but we are children so i

understand that you need

your attention and cheap thrills

but when you ‘hit me up’

asking what went wrong

and if you can make it up

you cannot blame me for laughing

you’re just as pathetic as i was

but i am no ‘cheap thrill’

i am fucking expensive

and money is not

my currency.

but looking at how pathetic

you are now,

i think you already know that

he is different and new

to all of this

and because of this

it makes me feel as if

i am also different and new

to all of this