You
You,
Oh you.
I cannot describe-
You.
The way you feel
The way you make me feel
Your gaze
Your intoxicating gaze
It's addicting
It stops me in my tracks
Stops my very breath
My heart skips
Skips its beat
I can't function
With that gaze
The longing
The need
The gaze
It holds me
My mind stops
Your touch
Fingers trail
Trail lazily
Lazily up and down
Shivers move over me
Shivers dance up
and down
I freeze
Warmth floods me
Warmth covers me
My blood pumps up
and down
Your touch
So intoxicating
So addicting
Your need
Covering me
Freezing me
Warming me
I can't think
Can't think straight
Can't talk straight
Walk straight
I'm a puddle
Your puddle
your breath
Intoxicatingly warm
Sends shivers through me
So close
Can almost touch
Can almost feel
You
Boy
I can't describe what you do
You feel so good
So addictingly sweet
So intoxicatingly warm
Boy
You have me
You got me
You own me
And I can't
Can't describe
How badly I want
Badly I need
You
You are what I yearn for
What stops me in my tracks
What makes me feel so good
And yet
You,
Oh you
I cannot describe-
You.
I'm so absurdly addicted to you
I long for you and need you too
The amount I want
You to rip me apart
To tear me apart
To string me up
To tie me down
To choke my breath
To caress my chest
To gaze down at me
To drag your teeth
To make me bleed
To break me down
To feel me up
To conquer me
To win with me
To take me slow
To rip my clothes
To be selfish
To tease me
To almost kiss
To hold me down
To tease a kiss an inch away
To leave me breathless
To give me pain
To do whatever's on your mind
I'm addicted to you
This is the truth
But don't forget
Every once in a while
I'll end up on top
I'll be the queen you'll bow down to
And I
I shall dominate you
Hunger
Oh how I hunger for you
It grows day by day
Your lingering gaze
Your soft lips
Your dancing fingers
I want it all
In the most selfish way
I hunger to feel you
Pressing close
To feel your hands lightly choke
Fingers scratching across skin
Biting nipping; let it in
I hunger for everything
Anything your willing to give
A scrap or two is fine by me
Just don't leave me high and dry
Tease me in your selfish ways
Tease me bind me claw away
Fingers running softly down
Lips they travel all around
Tongue, it moves to things untold
My breath is gone my soul is sold
For even just a second more
Is all that I am asking for
I hunger for you constantly
To have you near
My skin will sear
A fire burns where you touch
I hunger for you so damn much
I find for you I'd do anything
All you'd have to do is ring
I prob'ly should be more ashamed
For you I'd do things unnamed
But desperation wrings me tight
Feelings I don't want to fight
Hunger growing constantly
Passion swelling monsterly
Waiting and anticipating
Every touch barely saiting
Hunger gnawing
I am calling
Feed me all you have to give
And in return for you I'll live
Powerless
It hit me
In a moment;
Mixed with dread
And pleasure
I have no control
Not with you
It's all a myth
The power I had assumed
You have the upper hand
With me twirled around your fingers
Nothing I do could drive you
As mad as you've driven me
No touch
Could turn you to stone
Could turn you to melty butter
Could stop your heart
Even for a moment
I'd do anything
Anything
For you
My pride aside
I know it true
Anything is a lot of things
When you think on it
And I'm an addict
To your touch
So no price could be high enough
To get me to stop
I hold no power
No pull or sway
And you've figured this out
And tease me in anyway
That's fine
Don't stop
Because the smallest of tastes
Is better then none
To the lowly addict
That could never have won
when its right in front of you
but you cant quite reach it
~
when you crave it
to the point where you shake with anticipation
~
when it lightly touches you
and your mind crashes unable to function
~
when the very thought of it
brings you to your knees
~
when its light whisper
melts you to your spot
~
when its torture to stay
but you cant make yourself leave
~
when it pins you to your spot
and you cant do anything about it
~
when fingers creep over you
freezing you to your spot
~
when you're filled with longing
making your heart race and breathing heavy
~
that is the pain you put me through
and I don't ever want it to stop
hooked
I'm addicted
its a drug
I need it
long for it
crave it
each moment ticks by slower then the last
my mind is constantly occupied
thinking of this drug
my need multiplies
I can hardly go a day without it
even then I miss it before it leaves
I crave to feel it rushing through me
long to feel its pull on me
with it there everything is fine
and so now I've come to rely
on this addiction of the mind
I'm so addicted
its all I crave
the touch of this drug
I could never remake
the thought of it's enticing
I really need my fix
I'm running on empty
so much so
that its consuming me
I need its touch
to feel its sweet relief
to have and hold that drug closer to me
to feel it winding itself around me
tighter and closer till its choking me
I'm hooked on this drug
like nicotine cocaine or gasoline
or any drug in betweenits touch is thrilling to me
Bad dreams
Not nightmares, just bad dreams
Nothing you'd think to bad
Being chased by a bomber in a grocery store with a gun
A murderous cat that looks like your own trying to kill your beloved cat
Going to a different dimension with your sister only to have your other dimension bother and dad try to kill you with their machine guns
Night after night for far too long
Bad dream after bad dream
It's getting to the point where I don't want to close my eye
Each dream leaves a bad taste in my mouth
Each dream is inescapable
I couldn't say why
Just that I know they will come
3 am
I can't do it anymore
It's breaking me
Slowly but surely
To fall asleep in your arms
To fall asleep holding you
To fall asleep with you right there
And the have it all torn away
I can handle it anymore
I can't be told to go
I can't be shoved towards the door
It hurts too much
To leave you at three in the morning
To be told I can't stay
To have to walk away from you
It hurts to damn much
To lie in my own bed
Alone
At three in the morning
After I left you
After you told me to leave
After you told me it's way too late
You needed to get to sleep
It shouldn't hurt
But it does
I lie in the dark alone
Feeling so empty and sad
Evil feelings creep in the night
Loneliness
Unwanted
Hurt
Longing
Whispered voices come to me
Addictions cradle me
I flinch away
But here I lie
Alone in my bed
Having left you
And you watched me leave
At three in the morning
Red
*trigger warning*
Drip
Drip
Drip
splat.
Red hits the floor
I stare
Empty
I turn my gaze
Beads of red start to pool
I run my finger over it
I keep going
Unable to feel any of it
More
More
More
STOP
But there is no stopping
Only more
More red
More numbness
More attempts to feel something
My hands are stained and sticky
My gaze is empty and void
My body is covered
I can't stop
I have to stop
I need to keep going
All reason is gone
I can't feel
I can't function
I can't stop
I need to keep going
Red
Red
Red
Everywhere
Staining everything
There's panic underlying the numb
There's loneliness under the panic
My heart beats faster
I'm coming alive
Deeper
Deeper
Deeper
MORE
MORE
MORE
RED
RED
RED
I must feed the need
For more red
For more of anything
I can't quiet reach help
I try
I fail
I can't
The overwhelming feeling of nothing
Of failure
Of everything
Of void numbness
IT CONSUMES
until I'm sitting there covered and in a pool of blood.