Is it just me or does love feel so unfamiliar and free, it’s not foreign but it’s written in a language i have to unweave from my heart to my head, it’s written in silent words and hints and feelings that I tangle with in my bed, when I think about you, I think about love, I feel silly, it’s not enough that I’ve fallen, no, I’ve tumbled and tripped and dipped into your arms and your lips enough to lose myself, enough to need help when it’s finally time to rise. I’m a fool, this love thing does terrible things to my reason, I try to resolve for myself, but my first thought is pleasing you, you first, I feel as you do and if you hurt, I got the pain, I have the weight, whatever you hold, I’ll take, without thinking, what is love, is this love, I don’t know if I am strong enough, for all of this chaos

Is it just me or does love feel so unfamiliar and free, it’s not foreign but it’s written in a language i have to unweave from my heart to my head, it’s written in silent words and hints and feelings that I tangle with in my bed, when I think about you, I think about love, I feel silly, it’s not enough that I’ve fallen, no, I’ve tumbled and tripped and dipped into your arms and your lips enough to lose myself, enough to need help when it’s finally time to rise. I’m a fool, this love thing does terrible things to my reason, I try to resolve for myself, but my first thought is pleasing you, you first, I feel as you do and if you hurt, I got the pain, I have the weight, whatever you hold, I’ll take, without thinking, what is love, is this love, I don’t know if I am strong enough, for all of this chaos

I should hate you, I should hate.. me

Shades of grey matter, sinking into the bed,

Letters inside of my head,

Weight, weighed down from the life around me, I worry, endlessly,

Disconnect, try to eject myself from from the reality of the invisible disability

Throw the cover over my eyes and sink,

I am hiding, but I can’t hide long from

Me

I’ve been given darkness I can meet with open eyes

I’ve been given shadows that are never hard to find

I can’t run from the demons in my head

I only make them numb but they are never dead to me

Shuttered, the way I see things now

I can’t escape I don’t know how to cope

While I’m awake

I’m just hoping I don’t break myself

I just pray that I don’t take myself

Beyond where anyone can reach

That there’s some light within this suffering

What they call an invisible disability

Is so easy for me to see

Frequencies, mine accidentally tuned with the weird parts of you,

Tangled in your vibrations, your sensations heal every broken shard, I fell so damn hard for you,

Tripped, locked in to a beginning, the end static and sin,

Didn’t mean to be here, but here we are. I try to turn, flip the switch you picked without unzipping the scars,I slid into you the same way, you slid into me, literally, fitting within the splitting image.

Pretend-ed I was fine, before you I was lying, now, I’m a better version revolving a little around you, Thankful, I don’t need you, you enhance the chance of my elevation that I was blind to reaching.

Stars are now beside me,I am hanging on their light, we are bought bright enough to shine.

You better me letting me grow slow within the mold I am shedding,

Regretting any man I ever let soil me before, I want you everyday more and more

Every time you enter my atmosphere .If you’d allow me to stay within you, my safe space,my heart race-s every time you wrap your arms around me, freely loving every piece I am, my man, my heart, the embodiment of a best friend,

You have made my life golden, you’re love is the greatest seed sown, and within your tender touch, every bit of me has grown

And hopefully, you’ll grow too, and we’ll make, together,

A forever.

Together, a better frequency.