Visible

I should hate you, I should hate.. me

Shades of grey matter, sinking into the bed,

Letters inside of my head,

Weight, weighed down from the life around me, I worry, endlessly,

Disconnect, try to eject myself from from the reality of the invisible disability

Throw the cover over my eyes and sink,

I am hiding, but I can’t hide long from

I’ve been given darkness I can meet with open eyes

I’ve been given shadows that are never hard to find

I can’t run from the demons in my head

I only make them numb but they are never dead to me

Shuttered, the way I see things now

I can’t escape I don’t know how to cope

While I’m awake

I’m just hoping I don’t break myself

I just pray that I don’t take myself

Beyond where anyone can reach

That there’s some light within this suffering

What they call an invisible disability

Is so easy for me to see