Sorry this is late (curse you email verification glitch!), but my new account is finally up and running! NJ will not be there unfortunately.

I can't say the name here for multiple personal reasons, but please message me!

Love you all,

Z

Hey. I’m sorry about what I have to tell you, but due to personal things in our lives we have to discontinue this account. N. J. can’t write on prose anymore, but I will be starting another account. If you want to know the name, please message this account and I will tell you. N. J. and I have cherished this account very much, and we are sad to see it come to an end.

I will miss this,

Z

Why am i like this

I think

Why can't I just go out

Without having

A intense panic attack

Why can't I just look someone

Someone that has harassed me

So much

In the eyes

and not burst into tears

Why do I have to be like this.

I hate being like this

-Z

I shouldn't do this

I shouldn't be friends with him

Why can't I stop myself

Maybe it's because

I'm just a sympathetic person

I just feel bad for him

Right?

Confusion

Back and forth like a

furious tennis match

But all through the match

Everyone can agree on one thing

It will not end well.

-Z

Everyday

I wear a mask

a mask that hides my true feelings

a mask that hides the true me

And I can never let the mask slip

Oh no

It can

never

slip

I only take the mask off

When I'm completely alone

And I stare at the mirror

And hate how the real me looks

-Z

What happens next?

What happens

when you tell

them I hate you?

What happens then?

Your not in a relationship,

but you are.

You don’t need to break up,

but you do.

What happens then?

What happens when you hate the person you love?

-N.J.

What happens next?

What happens when you decide

you want to live life with them?

What happens when you talk about

plans of getting married?

What happens then?

What happens then?

What happens when you realize

you haven’t even known each other

for barely 3 years?

What happens when you decide

that you don’t like them,

after two days of secrets?

What happens next?

What happens if you don’t know Love?

-N.J.

It’s something we all struggle with.

We get our hopes up,

then someone lets us down.

We are sorry we ever trusted them,

for they have committed a legal crime.

Sure you don’t get in trouble

with the cops,

with the state,

but you do get in trouble.

On a much deeper level.

You get in trouble

with your friends,

with your family,

you do get in trouble,

on a much deeper level.

Legal crimes are the worst,

not forgivable.

Would you rather be

sentenced to death literally,

or sentenced to a life without people?

What is life without people to enjoy the ride with?

-N.J.

Love.

Love is sometimes quick

Fleeting

Sometimes it's slow

Romantic

It takes its time

I have felt love.

Before I was 13.

Some of you will think I haven't

But my love isn't something for someone else to define

I have been in love.

I have had my heart broken because of that.

For some reason

I don't regret a second of any of it

Except the end

The beginning is always better than the end

For the end is bittersweet

You have either drifted apart from love

Or it comes to a fiery end.

-Z