Can you blame me

If I wish that I've never met thee?

You were on the stage smiling

Then everything else stopped from moving

I never want your talent

Never interested on it

The way you moved

Made me want to grove

If I can go back in time and given a choice

For sure I would without making noise

If I were back in time

I would set my feet on different line

I would walk on the opposite side

So our world would not collide.

I thought that meeting was one time

Then it was repeated twice, thrice

Many many more times

Then I found my self thinking, wow how did I get here

Fate is as playful as they say

Days, weeks, months, even years passed without seeing you

I almost forgotten you

Almost

Then fate intervened

We shared the same profession

My students, are your proteges

My nephews and nieces your students.

Then I found myself asking them

To convince you to leave your work and join me

I did everything I can for you I say

But I realized it is all for me

I wish you're hard headed as I

Then the need for this piece would not arise

But you're soft, easy to talk to

Easy to manipulate, easy to convince

Opposite of what you should be

I wish I have never met you

If I never had

Then I'd be sleeping now instead

Then my head would be filled with thoughts of him and not of you

I wish that I had never met you

Then there would be no need to

Impress you,  want you

Look for you,  watch you

Sometimes I wish I had never met you

So then I could go to sleep at night

Not knowing there was someone like you

Sleeping out there

These bitter feelings would not be present

This dull ache I feel would not be herel

Then I wouldn't be numb

I wish I never liked you

I wish I never knew you

If I could go back in time I would promise I would not go to that event

But since I can't

Thank you

For I met you

I wish that I never knew you.

I wish that I didn't remember how your voice sounds when you're worried, or happy, or anxious.

I wish that I had never memorized your eyes, the little ripples in the sea of infinity.

I wish that I could forget how it feels for your eyes to be staring into my very soul.

I wish that you hadn't teased me and treated me like your best friend.

I wish that I never had the chance to memorize your grin.

I wish that I had never watched your heart break when you heard why I was quiet in class when you knew better.

I wish that I forgot how relieved you were when you heard that I didn't like my guy friend.

I wish that I could forget it all and remember how you hurt me.

I wish I could just move on.

But you just keep pulling me back in every time I try.

If I had never met you, I wouldn't have known what it's like to be loved

What it's like to know I'm wanted every second of everyday

If I had never met you I would still be on the edge of tears, but not quite there

If I had never met you I wouldn't crave someone's touch

Someone's love, a hand to hold

If I had never met you my life would be different

I wouldn't know how sad I really was

I wouldn't know what it feels like to be 100% happy

If I had never met you, I would never have thought about you

I wouldn't feel alone

I wouldn't know what I was missing

I wish I never met you because then I wouldn't be feeling like this