No means no

At least that's what they say at school

But I'm learning that no doesn't always mean no

Because I said no when he asked to touch me, and I continued to say to say no while his hand traveled across my thighs and up my shirt

He said he didn't know I didn't want it, but how did he not notice I was crying? Begging him to stop? How did he not hear my cries for help? Feel me attempting to push him off?

He kissed my wrist but here's the twist I told him no and he got pissed

His hands formed a fist and then I was hit

And I was hit again when instead of swallowing, I spit

And he threatened my family and he threatened my life, he even got out a sizeable knife... kinky he said

But... I was asking for it right? My sweatpants and t shirt were just too sexy to resist right? If I didn't want him, I shouldn't have worn something so revealing... right?

Wrong.

How about we stop fucking telling girls what not to wear, and start telling boys that no actually means no. How about we stop expecting girls to be okay with just pleasing the man? Why do we have to apologize for saying no, when it's been a basic human right for centuries

This isn't a fucking petting zoo, this is my fucking bedroom, and if I wanted you I would have told you. So get your damn hand off my chest and stop begging me to get undressed and stop taking it as yes because that just makes me want to say no.

No means no. Not try again later. So how about you grow the fuck up and stop blaming her.

Speak

Speak with words that create sentences that flow into paragraphs that melt into essays. Speak with words so bold you could never be told you're wrong. If you are wrong, be wrong, be who you want, believe what you want, live like you want

Accept no limits and fear no disease

Death is a trap that everyone falls into and when you fall in, there's no coming out

So live. Live like you've never loved and love like you've never been broken

Say what you mean and mean what you say

At the end of each day realize tomorrow's a new one, a new chance, a new dream to be lived. When you dream don't wake up, keep dreaming and dreaming and dreaming until you've dreamt up every possibility. The world is yours and you are someone's world

Live valiantly but safely, for there are people who love you

If you think no one does, check again, look into the eyes of the one trying to love you and let them in. See that they only want you to be happy, tell them you appreciate them, let them know their efforts don't go unnoticed

Teach them to read with their heats and love with their ears, show them that not everything is okay, because most of its not. Tell them when their words hurt

If you are struggling don't be afraid, most of us are. The world will be cruel if you let it. So don't. Breath in the good and exhale the bad. Know that you will not be remembered by your mistakes, but by the greatness you were

If you think there is no good in you, look in the mirror, keep looking, see how your hair falls in line with out trying, know that acne will clear up, you are beautiful no matter what the monsters in your head and lives say. Wake up in the morning and chose to be happy. Wake up and tell yourself you deserve to be happy.

If I had never met you, I wouldn't have known what it's like to be loved

What it's like to know I'm wanted every second of everyday

If I had never met you I would still be on the edge of tears, but not quite there

If I had never met you I wouldn't crave someone's touch

Someone's love, a hand to hold

If I had never met you my life would be different

I wouldn't know how sad I really was

I wouldn't know what it feels like to be 100% happy

If I had never met you, I would never have thought about you

I wouldn't feel alone

I wouldn't know what I was missing

I wish I never met you because then I wouldn't be feeling like this

Cry, cut bleed repeat

That's my nightly routine

Look at me, you see me smile?

I've been faking for quite awhile

No one noticed, no one cared

For me there was nobody there

Every time I've opened up

They quickly took back their love How deeply I can cut, that's my favorite game

It's the only thing that distracts me from the pain

People only care when you're dead and gone

It looks like for me it won't be that long

Cry, cut, bleed, repeat

Until there's nothing left of me