There's no happily ever after

No silence filled with laughter

No pain without the dagger

No void that doesn't get blacker

There's just the tears filled with fears

And the screams no one hears

So you draw on a smile

Even though you feel vile

You walk the walk

You talk the talk

But when you look in the mirror

It couldn't be clearer

The sadness inside

That you've denied

Painted in your eyes

There's no surprise

But no one else can see

All that you may be

So you wipe your tears

Disguise your fears

Illuminate your teeth

And hide all that lies beneath

there’s no happily ever after

No silence filled with laughter

No bed filled with bodies

Unless death is the next chapter

No books with filled pages

Only rings around the eyes

No engagement

From staying up late

Writing is the only way to escape

Your pen your only friend

To help you sentence your sins

And arrest your heart

After you committed

But now your silence is laughter

Because you finally reached the last

Chapter

There’s no sworn happy ever after,

No promised silence filled with laughter

No guarantee of paradise

Of snake eyes when you roll the dice...

It sucks.

It’s sad

It’s scary, too

But you can’t ruin Now.

You can’t ruin You.

See-

There IS a happy here, right Now

whatever moments’ love allows

Forget next century, decade, year

Remember feelings, Now, right here

Those anxious “if”s? They just don’t matter

You’re happy Now

and Maybe After.

There’s no happy ever after

No silence filled with laughter

Tears don’t dull the pain

Crave sunshine, but only get rain

Only darkness but crave the light

Seems like forever night

Don’t use the rope

There is always a glimmer of hope

Don’t let the darkness leave its mark

Search deep down for that still dim spark

Hold onto that glimmer

Let it shimmer

Don’t let your storms be the norms

Let the suns rays

Brighten your days

Sometimes the darkest storms, makes the brightest rainbows.

There’s no happy ever after

No silence filled with laughter

Just us naked in front of someone

Who we met for the first time

There’s no happy ever after

No silence filled with laughter

I told you this line

Over a million times

And look what had happened

Look where we are

Looking at the scars

Of somebody else

We examine their body

Thinking he’s that somebody

We looked for in each other

But now in the others.

They change and they change

No one’s staying for long

And they keep rotating

’Till the end of times.

There’s no happy ever after. No silence filled with laughter.

There is only the broken pieces, dragged from your skin an placed before you.

Its your choice.

Shall you destroy them? Or make your own thorn crown?

Words and tears and insane laughter had spilled from your mouth like vomit,

but now those emotions had grown ashen.

Or had they run away?

Your inner child is still wounded,

you EGO shattered,

your ID feral,

love lanuage dead,

and true meaning cryptic by your actions and reactions.

There is only an empty ruin of what could have been a wonderful--

You here, are here.

Nothing more, nothing less.

And yet you smile.

For now, you can build again.

And maybe you can use the shards as pigments to paint with your fingertips.

#ajrfanz