by: Lexi Hunt

I didn’t sit alone, someone else was present too

One, two, three

My mind was split

Four, five, six

Two sides, two stories, almost two people

Seven, eight, nine

I couldn’t take it anymore

Ten, eleven, twelve

The countless fights between myself

Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen

But fifteen is all it took

I lay peacefully down

And wake up in a room

Not a familiar place

No, i was hooked up to a machine

Not knowing what was happening

The machines numbers increased

As my heart pumped

faster

faster

faster

by: lexi hunt

Silence isnt enough.

Silence doesn’t fix their insomnia

Their post traumatic stress disorder

They say memories are supposed to be vague

But these are different; these don’t go away

They don’t die out or fade

the silence is supposed to honor

But how can they be thankful when all they see is that innocent kid

The kid they thought had a bomb

The kid that was taught killing was okay

The kid that doesnt know any better because his parents are out doing things no kid should see

Silence will never be enough

But we continue

It makes us feel better about our broken society

Our shattered hearts and injured soldiers

It tricks our sick brains into thinking that we are good people

that hundreds of us around the nation

honor those and stay silent

That we have good intentions

That our country isn’t stuck on top of a burning building

But we are

And no matter what they convey

Silence isn't enough.

By: Lexi Hunt

What if I was born into a different body of water

Bounded together

By the thousands of souls that set before my eyes

The glistening pupils of only one perspectives

Shaped and altered by hundreds of forces

In which they choose my destiny; my future

My future is defined

By the sustaining occurrence

Of the antagonists breakthrough

On my heart

But what if my heart is shattered

And that’s what is holding me back

The perspective was shifted by another heart

A broken one

That tore me apart

Suffering a drought

Of spinning thoughts

like a tsunami just hitting shore

That left me stranded in the body of water

I wasn’t meant to drowned into.

By: Lexi Hunt

Sweetie, it's been too long

We can't do this alone

We need to tell him otherwise

This house wont be a home

But mom he doesn't get it

He’ll blame it on my age

He’ll tell me to forget it

And I'll be sad more days

The time is now my dear

Your dad is on his way

Please dont fear I'll talk to him

It will just take a few days

Hey dad, I have to tell you now

The truth is that I’m ill

My mind is sick and I don't know how

This is not my will

You need to grow up child

Your friends are in the way

I bet the case is mild

All you do is misbehave

But daddy you don't understand

Why I feel this way

No , please dont grab my hand

And tell me it's not okay

You do this for attention

One day it won't be cool

I'm your dad and did I mention

I was once in school?

She's in the hospital now

And in better hands

Doctor, doctor, tell him how

To give our kid a chance

Oh, I get it now

I have to stop the drinking

I promise I'll be better child

The doctor got me thinking

I’ll try to be a better dad

Since she still wants me around

I don't want her to be so sad

My daughter needs me now

I love her way too much

To see her poor face go

I miss her so I must

Make this a better home

I love you dad, I hope you know

I’m healing just for you

Don't be scared I’m coping now

The sadness is almost through

I know sweetie, and I get it now

How life can be so cruel

I promise you forever and out

I love you too.

when i hear your name

when i see your face my

heart starts to break

every time

and the pain you caused

leaves me better off in a

place where you’re not

in my life

and i will never let you go

i will never let you go

but you hurt me

my hearts in pain and maybe you’re to blame but i can’t let you go

it’s like love without hope and i’m trying to cope but i

can’t let you go

this love is taking me so many places i never wanted to go

at least not alone

i can’t let you go

i can’t let you go

i’m falling to my knees

i’m begging you please

please don’t leave

i need to see you

my hearts in pain and maybe you’re to blame but i

i can’t let you go

it’s like love without hope and i’m trying to cope but i

i can’t let you go

this love is taking me so many places i never wanted to go, at least not alone

i can’t let you go

i can’t let you go

but i’m saying goodbye for myself

i only meant to treat you well

when i hear your name

when i see your face

i don’t cry, i just know that

my hearts in pain and maybe you’re to blame but i

can’t let you go

it’s like love without hope and i’m trying to cope but i

can’t let you go

i can’t let you go

intimacy

close familiarity or friendship; closeness

intimacy

an intimate act, especially sexual intercourse.

it's affinity

lust

not the fragmented girl looking to fill the void

not the boys obsolete heart trying to escape the traps of the skin

the blood from his wounds infecting hers as their body's light up fires

forest fires that cannot be tamed

the fire spreads feeding off natural beauty.

she was beautiful

oh, so beautiful.

my ears are ringing

they drowned out everything

everything except the broken voices that were heard in the piercing shadow of the mind.

one mind

my mind

the ring was distant;

so faint

yet just loud enough to make the thoughts scream.

suddenly the dark alleys of my mind were awakened by street lights and sirens

the ringing became familiar

it got closer

yet i was the one moving

the shadow is evading under my fingertips. the drunken night sweetens at the shriveled face of fireball and a light weight.

who’s left?

the vacant body of a woman leaning over the toilet of a hotel bathroom who’s heart left love and -

it didn’t leave

who’s heart changed -

it didn’t change

her heart was resorting to the now shattered whiskey bottles scattered across the wall and the ashes of what left her intellect tapered and forgetful in the darkest of nights

You seem to be upset

Can it be characterized?

Its me, the rope, Ive come to life.

I understand life is hard,

but you’ll make it out alright.

You tied me in a knot, and took your sweet time.

I wish you would’ve stopped to think

as long as you did when it came to me.

The step of your life is not off of the chair

Its the moment you realize there is so much more.