Dreams aren’t always good,

Dreams can cause more pain than reality can.

You see some dreams…. they stay with you

But for me this dream is my reality,

Because I never wake up.

Every “day” is a constant reminder that I will never be normal.

Then again,

What good is being normal?

I see other people and they just seem so….Happy!

But they never notice my existence,

They're just living their life like nothing is wrong ,

But for me everything is wrong!

I’m living my life inside a bubble…

And it’s slowly killing me.

The miserable feeling of being lonely I’m stuck with,day in and day out.

The feeling’s presence is indescribable

I'm driving into insanity and the breaks are cut!

There's no stopping me.

And in a sudden moment everything is peaceful.

I'm finally an equal to others

I'm a part of and helping in something bigger than myself

I'm finally at rest.

I feel it in my bones,

I hurt in my every move,

They treat me with these types of drones

My hair is gone and no longer smooth

My mother cries while she hears my groans

But I tell her, “ Just keep hope! "

I feel sick about the money

To them I am just a burden

My mother tells me “ Don't worry honey!”

But sometimes I just want to end the uncertain

In my thoughts I feel so lonely

But I tell myself, “ Just keep hope! "

My mother wails as the doctor tells the tale.

Am I really going home?

I'm being released from this jail!

The outside world i'm now free to roam!

I have finally made bail!

And I know its because “ I just kept hope!"

“Boom! Boom! Boom!" Goes my chest.

I see a bright light, I lay there shaking,

I lie there calmly, finaly at rest

Then came a flat line not even waking

Inside the pearly gates, I end my quest

Now I know the meaning of “I just kept hope!”