Moments of ecstacy, feeling carefree,

Only make the inevitable fall much more extreme.

Starting as friends, one night of wonder,

Left in pieces, now completely asunder.

I didn't want to need you, didn't see it coming,

How much I crave your friendship, feels so unbecoming.

Is it me that's at fault? Did I push you away?

What was it that happened, I need you to say.

Mixed feelings and jumbled signals,

It should have been so simple.

One night of unreserved passion,

Should not end in extirpation.

I believed us closer than we now seem to be,

I cannot fathom why you're doing this to me.

I don't know why I feel the way I do,

But one thing's for sure; I didn't want to need you.

Sitting here cheeks soaked with tears,

Feeling like an idiot,

So easy you confirmed my fears,

These emotions are insidious,

I understand now why I stayed all those years,

Never venturing out,

Never taking a chance,

Now you've caused my heart to bleed.

I doubt you even have a reason

I doubt you even know,

Just how deep,

You've dealt this blow.

The pressure of you lips against mine,

Your tongue caressing,

Leg pressed between my thighs,

Softly, slowly, with complete finesse.

You create feelings of hunger,

Insatiatiable yearning,

Not a moment do you encumber,

Your lips discerning.

Pressed against the wall,

Weak at the knees,

The passion, so deeply enthralled,

Tantalising, unable to appease.

Panting, I need more,

Mouth presses deeply,

I remember not what came before,

For you have kissed me so completely.

The stench of death is overwhelming,

Soaking into every pore,

Equally daring and compelling,

Something is wrong, it implores.

Rolling to my other side,

Hoping for some release,

Despite this I am cockeyed,

And unable to appease.

For once more I find myself,

Recoiling from the suffocating stench,

The miasma truly overwhelms,

Nevertheless my stomach doth clench.

With a resounding roar,

And with blinding pain,

It escapes once more,

This fart has clouded the room again.

The cobble stones beneath my feet,

Magick in the atmosphere

Horse carts rattle by

The demons not discreet

Over near the apothecary, one hears a ghost

From whence he came he disappears

Forever more engrossed.

Brittle pages break with time

The story never lost

One must only pick up,

From whence they left off.

Language can create anything

So wrap thee and peruse

For a book can take you anywhere

It is certain to enthuse.

Racism, bigotry and discrimination,

Why do we do this to each other?

War and hate is the new fixation,

Destroying mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers.

What will it take to end this insanity,

When will we wake up to peace,

Everywhere I look it's depravity,

When will this all just cease?

Religion, culture and ethnicity,

Everyone is different in some way,

Staying silent creates complicity,

End this immorality, we all have a say.

Children are victims of this abhorrence,

Forgetting what it means to be human,

Forgetting that in some way everyone is foreign,

Make hate not war, reject that which is inhuman.

This world needs us to ascend,

Take a stand against human rights violations,

Make it known that it's condemned,

Quit being so damn complacent.

Music that only I can hear,

Beat running through my mind,

At this moment I have no fear,

My only care is what I could find.

Fleeting moments of liberation,

Enhanced by the presence of my own world,

Feelings of immense elation,

Finally able to completely unfurl.

The days worries are behind me,

All my concerns are now austere,

This puffin is now carefree,

Listening to the music that only I can hear.

Devastation is what you do to me

On it goes, perhaps it’s my destiny

Maybe if I listened better

Even still, I’m sure I wouldn’t follow to the letter

Single blows, eye swelled closed

Traumatised endlessly, I’m sure it shows

Insistent crying, baby behind my legs

Cowering, screaming… This is my fault

Vitriolic you claim, why do you make me do this you scream

Indifferent I am, not even bothering with excuses

Obedient I aspire to be, hoping you will stay

Lamenting about that which I have become

Endless denying, one day you will change

Needing you, wanting you, why must you do this to us?

Calamitous is our relationship

Embittered you have made me, now I must find the strength to leave.

Alienating everyone I know,

Seems to be the only thing I do well,

I always hurt them just so,

For what reason I can never tell.

Cheeks sticky with tears,

Heart bending with blades,

How do I do this for so many years?

Wherever I am pain follows in spades.

Why do I even bother?

Alone I must be destined for,

For I always seem to hover,

Desperately wanting more.

Bottom lip trembles,

Breathing quickens,

I should just give up

What else do I have anyway.

Breaking your heart,

Hearing you cry,

Leaves me wishing I could depart,

From this life that's a lie.

My chest is heavy,

My brain is muddled,

How do I keep steady?

When your pain is quintuple.

How is it that your torment,

Affects me so profoundly,

Walking through cement,

Would be better than suffering coldly.

If I could only make it better,

Change the way things turned out,

I'd do it down to the letter,

Make her feelings devout.

I'd do whatever it took,

I'd suffer in your spot,

But they didn't write the book,

About making the agony stop.

You've endured so much,

In almost one instant,

Even for you that's tough,

But you'll once again be brilliant.

Just know this bb,

I'll be here for you,

No matter how long, you'll see,

I'll do what I can to help you through.