Don't say you love me if you can treat me like I don't exist

Don't say I'm your world when I am so easily dismissed

I love you and hate you all in the same breath

I sometimes feel the only solution would be my death

I'm not suicidal but I can't live this way

Nothing changes no matter how hard I pray

I just want a love that makes me feel complete

I don't want to play second best I don't know how to compete

Actions speak louder than words and right now I don't hear or feel nothing

You have me questioning who I should be trusting

Could it be me that's imaging problems that aren't even real

I haven't been the same since mom passed, can't find a way to heal

I'm letting grief take over completely consuming me

I keep thinking things will go back to normal if I just let them be

Every day is a new battle

Feeling like I'm trying to swim upstream with no paddle

If we're supposed to be a team then why do I feel so alone

Questioning if you would even miss me if I never came home

In one simple gesture you make me feel like a queen

Two seconds later the switch flips and you're devilishly mean

Trying desperately to get your attention

Slowly starving for your affection

I can't picture a life without you

but I don't want to imagine life like this

I want to feel like a sitcom and live and love in pure bliss

I want people to envy our deep connection

I never want you to question your selection

We let people break our unbreakable connection

Our life left hanging in suspension

I'm fighting to get back to our happy place

I'll be here waiting patiently in the wings

Ready to once again feel like a queen to my king

#dont #comeback #isitme #sparkleplenty #queen

Who is she, where did she come from

She's not who she was before....she's gone numb

You gave me life and then left me for dead

Played with my emotions and messed up my head

treated like the red headed stepchild except I'm first born

supposed to love my little sister but I've always felt torn

Never felt truly accepted

always felt like the outsider being rejected

Things aren't the same, people have changed

Could it just be me and my mind flipped to deranged

I don't see the light, I don't feel the sun

Anger and sadness have replaced my unfiltered fun

My mother is dead and I secretly wish it was my father

I know how that's gotta sound but he helped create this monster

I lost my strength and my tenacity

It destroyed my entire personality like a fatality

What happened to unconditional love and lack of judgement

It's my life and I damn sure didn't hire you as a consultant

All a girl wants is the love of her father

She should never feel like she's a bother

Would it have killed you to pick up the phone when she died

Knowing I needed you to tell me it was ok while I cried

All I got was a text ...sorry for your loss

No big deal right it's just the woman who gave me life.....PAUSE!

By Shannon Redmond

#broken #whoami #daddydearest #deadbeatdad #numb

In a world filled with anger, hatred and the longing for peace

We keep the tension brewing by posting our drama and letting social media feast

You can't turn on your TV or computer without hearing about violence and killings

It's gotten so bad the kids today aren't even phased, its just another day chillin.

We see something disturbing and we pick up our phones, shouting out WORLDSTAR hoping it goes viral

Not caring how it affects our kids sending them on an ugly downward spiral

Bullying and fighting it’s a daily battle

Leaving our kids with a choice throw a punch or tattle

So the bullies go on bullying because as the saying goes snitches get stitches

The sharkeishas get famous while their victims are laying in cold lonely ditches

Whether we watch out of pleasure or disgust were helping promote the decay of society

Lets stop the violence and teach our kids how to act in the streets so they stop trying so hard for notoriety

Stop kicking grandma's and shaming our kids, save the drama for cable

Go home spend quality time with our families and maybe just maybe we can hope for a future not so concerned about senseless labels

By Shannon Redmond

#decay #society #bullying #violence #worldstar #lilsparkleplenty

Best friend or foe

I swear I'll never know

You're nice one minute, nasty the next

The things that you say leave me perplexed

I would never say that to even those I hate

I don't know how to walk away so I just patiently wait

I pray you'll eventually realize what you're doing to us and change

But it's always a new argument that leaves us at the brink of being estranged

There's always an excuse and passing of the blame

Flipping it around and accusing me of playing victim is your game

I used to pride myself on being grateful, courteous and sweet

Now to catch me in a good mood is a rare treat

It's getting harder and harder to watch this downward spiral

I feel like my life, my morals and my values are on trial

I say I won't let you get to me but how can you stop a speeding train

I miss you being my umbrella in the pouring rain

Our friendship has taken a turn for the worse

It's something that only you can reverse

Why does it feel like jealousy

When you have the power to create your own legacy

This isn't a competition, no fight to the finish line

You can do anything be anything, now is the perfect time

Bring me back the unbreakable girl I vaguely remember

The one who was happy, carefree and didn't have a temper

She's somewhere in there waiting to make a comeback

To show everyone you're unstoppable will be the ultimate payback

Stop wasting time and letting the past keep replaying

Welcome back to the world of the living that you're finally reclaiming

Come back to reality and drop down your guard

Wipe off the dirt it didn't leave you scarred

Open your eyes and realize life isn't against you

It merely gave you the opportunity to become someone new

By Shannon Redmond

#bestfriend #foe #life #unsettled #friendship

Panting, pacing, frustration that's my daily struggle 

Life as an over thinker requires a stunt double 

Head tells me no but my heart says hell yes 

Creating a quiet storm inside me filled with endless stress 

Full of doubt none of it warranted or needed 

Enough to make a girl feel nervous, unwanted and defeated 

People pleaser by nature I just can't do right 

Did I make the best decision keeps me awake at night 

Can't let things go and let the chips fall where they may 

Instead I torture myself and let situations continually run on instant replay

Never knowing who's angry or possibly upset by my words and actions 

Always worried I will get a negative reaction 

Time to stand up for myself,stop self doubting and stand tall 

I refuse to sink or let anyone see me fall 

I'm gonna start speaking my mind for me and me alone

No more indecisiveness, stop acting like a child you're grown 

I'm breaking out of my skin

It's time for you all to meet what's deep down inside me....THE CONQUERER who defeated the beast within 

By

Shannon Redmond

(Lilsparkleplenty)

#conquerer #beast #overthinker #findingme #prose #flowing

Does for better or worse count when you're not even married

Is it fair to take on a load you were never meant to carry

You give your everything just to be let down

No matter how much you paddle you're still about to drown

I love you with every breath but is that enough

I try to speak to you but you don't understand me and walk away in a huff

Calling me sensitive would be considered an understatement

I do everything I can to try to be patient

I just want to run away from everything and everyone

Hoping this helpless feeling will be followed by some miraculous outcome

My mother taught me to be strong and never let them see you stumble

Any mountain can be climbed no matter how jagged or crumbled

That won't happen unless we communicate and work together as a team

We always come out on top despite how impossible it seems

If our love is strong and truly unbreakable

Stop pushing me away and be emotionally available

It's almost too late I've had about enough

But I'm no quitter and I'm trying to be tough

It's now or never, either hold on or let go

It's our time to shine and to continue to grow

I'm feeling weak but I'll hold on a little bit longer

What doesn't kill us will only make us stronger

I'll be waiting with arms open wide

Please remember I'll always be by your side

For better or worse i promise I'll stay

But only if you promise to stop pushing me away

By Shannon Redmond (lilsparkleplenty)

#betterorworse #life #relationship #married #notmarried