Within my grasp

Don't say you love me if you can treat me like I don't exist

Don't say I'm your world when I am so easily dismissed

I love you and hate you all in the same breath

I sometimes feel the only solution would be my death

I'm not suicidal but I can't live this way

Nothing changes no matter how hard I pray

I just want a love that makes me feel complete

I don't want to play second best I don't know how to compete

Actions speak louder than words and right now I don't hear or feel nothing

You have me questioning who I should be trusting

Could it be me that's imaging problems that aren't even real

I haven't been the same since mom passed, can't find a way to heal

I'm letting grief take over completely consuming me

I keep thinking things will go back to normal if I just let them be

Every day is a new battle

Feeling like I'm trying to swim upstream with no paddle

If we're supposed to be a team then why do I feel so alone

Questioning if you would even miss me if I never came home

In one simple gesture you make me feel like a queen

Two seconds later the switch flips and you're devilishly mean

Trying desperately to get your attention

Slowly starving for your affection

I can't picture a life without you

but I don't want to imagine life like this

I want to feel like a sitcom and live and love in pure bliss

I want people to envy our deep connection

I never want you to question your selection

We let people break our unbreakable connection

Our life left hanging in suspension

I'm fighting to get back to our happy place

I'll be here waiting patiently in the wings

Ready to once again feel like a queen to my king