I remember the very first kiss

Poking my head through your window 

The sweet smell of your perfume 

Tired of talking bout us i know

You moved on and had a baby

Got you a new man too

Ig you're not my baby

But I'll move on it's cool

I'm still stuck

How could you love me

But let another man fuck

You couldn't been real with me

Left me for dead

I remember crying in my mama arms

Our 3 years playing in my head

So much make sense sending alarms 

I thought you would be honest at least 

Now I hurt females that are real with me

I just imma be a beast

Until my beauty comes and save me

Hopefully she can clean the mess you made

Maybe she'll make me forget bout you

We may be best friends on one day, and enemies on the other.

We may act like each other parents sometimes, correcting each other.

And sometimes we behave like siblings pulling each other's legs,

While other times like colleagues helping each other out of a mess.

I don't know what we exactly are but I do know that I need you,

You are everything my dear to me, you're the best friend from heaven.

Dear Ma, 

You never had enough,

And taught us that life is tough,

But always tried to give us as much as you could one way or the other.

Your struggle is something i will always remember

Now I am miles away,

Just calling to say hey

Dont worry bout me

You taught me everything that was needed to be

I once told someone,

That you live in shades of black and white,

So old you couldnt see at night

You live to make sure we are alright

Always kept me in your sight

And now you can sleep through the night

I swear I would do anything for you,

If you asked me to,

And although I come across as heartless and that I only care about myself,

I love you more than the rest because you're the best,

In this world full of lies your love is the only thing that's real

Sorry it took so long to realize

I promised her I will make it in life

Because its only right

When times are rough that i will fight

Anything else is failure

Words cannot describe everything I feel about you,

But my life is empty without someone like you

So caring yet so annoying,

And I guess this is true love,

Forever secretly emotional and unconditional,

Loving someone without expecting something in return.

Ma life lessons learned

If I had only one wish all my life,

I would wish to make you my wife.

I would wish to wake up every morning to the smell of your skin,

I would wish to make you happier than you have ever been.

I would wish to always be there for you,

I would wish that my sweetheart is never ever left blue.

If I had only one wish all my life to live up to,

I would only and only wish for you!

Societies definition of beauty

They defined beauty as being yellow

They defined beauty as being skinny /slim

They defined beauty as having a weave on

They defined beauty as wearing expensive clothes

What manner of society is this

Are they even sure that this is beauty

We have our soul sisters with black skins

Big boned sisters

Coarse hair sisters

Sisters wearing African clothes

Are they not beautiful?

But hold up let me tell you what beauty is

Beauty is an imperfect soul striving for perfection

Beauty is the love from within

Beauty is the one who carried extra weight in her stomach for nine months

Beauty is the one who wakes up every cold and hot morning goes to work just to feed her family

Beauty is always defined in beings but is truly not in beings only

But can also be found in beings doings

I saw beauty from her mothers hardships and her fathers sufferings

Striving for her education

Beauty is the brain that has knowledge so to make her beautiful they never bought her make up,weave nor expensive clothes

But they bought her books

It like final destination

With zero communication

We used to be so close

I remember when i almost overdose

With you peace is what i found

Now i lay here on the ground

Thinking about life

And had i almost took it with a knife

I tried to live obvious lies

But you seen right through my disguise

You chest where i used to lay my head

Soaking wet from the many tears I have shed

Now your gone

And i feel so alone

I pray to God everyday

That you will come home someday

In This life its killed or be killed i remember seeing bestfriends turn into enemies

I remember seeing guns turn bros into memories

Had to keep the steel on me was my mentality

In reality this is a fucked up society  

This life is a war zone 

 we cant even sit on the porch

Without worrying the next dude having ah torch

Trynna live a life to make my momma proud

Just so she could scream for my success 

Not scream cause my body is laying on the ground 

Wanna live to tell my wife to throw it in the bag

Not to be seen inna body bag

Its crazy i could find a gun quicker than I could find a job 

This society anit how it's supposed to be 

Yes black lives matter but MLK dream was for all races to get together 

Im tired of waiting forcharge 

Today is the day 

What do you say

Let's hold hands 

And pray for better end