How can I explain

The importance of a life

The breathe of something new

Only ended with a knife

How can I explain

All the pain and mixed up dread

Through the sorrow and the hope

Praying you won't end up dead

And how can I explain

These words that tear apart my soul

When they exit into open air

And down the empty hole

Explain the coffin laying there

Upon the frozen ground

And explain the breathes of sadness

Leaving quiet hallow sounds

So now your gone and I can't seem

To find the reason why

You left us all despite the dreams

Of starting a new life.

(Rough draft. Can't sleep. Feel sad but I don't know why. And I haven't lost anyone or anything I just come up with stuff and write it down)

The trees were rocking back and forth

The leaves rustled endlessly

The icy wind came from the north

The storm will come relentlessly

The leaves rustled back and forth

The sidewalk slick with ice

The storm will come relentlessly

It’s time to pay the price

The sidewalk slick with ice

Clouds are near and thunder cracks

It’s time to pay the price

Lightning laced in holy black

Clouds are near and thunder cracks

The icy wind came from the north

Lightning laced in holy black

The trees were rocking back and forth

Maybe I should have said more

Like the way I felt a new type of happy around you

Or the way I feared what was in store

It’s just something I can’t do

I can’t tell you how mad I felt

I can’t tell you how many tears fell from my eyes

I can’t describe how it feels when anger and sadness melt

And I can’t explain how hard I tried to avoid the lies

I wanted to ask why

Or just scream

I wanted you to see me cry

My stupidity became a stream

A stream of anger

That excited my body through the mascara running down my cheeks

Was I just a stranger

That you saw and thought was weak

I wish I had told you

That I wanted you to be a dream

But I didn’t want to see you

And I didn’t want to make a scene

There's this thing

Like a person that tears me apart

It drags me down mountains

And rips up my heart

It holds me hostage

And beats up my soul

It cripples my insides

Creating a hole

My body is twisted, hurtled, and thrown

My chest hits the ground

As my head cracks a stone

My breathes are shallow

My fists are clenched

My throat is burning

The demons dance

They thrive on my anger

And laugh at my tears

They pull at my edges

And poke me with spears

The cycle won't end

I can't let them go

They keep me alive

By killing my soul

Can't you hear the wind

The storm draws near

Can't you sense the fear

Can't you taste the rain

Here comes the freeze

It will never leave

He's back again and my heart beats

Though not for love but for a hating feat

His eyes are the cold

That's how it begins

Spreading like a poison mold

His hands are the cage

It surrounds me

I'm his puppet on a stage

His breath steals mine

So he can live and I can die

Around my neck his hands leave a sign

The tears in my eyes are fire. Do not cry

Do not cry are the words that stab the back of my head.

Trying to crawl out of my eyes

Trying to get away from his shadow

Suddenly they freeze. The ice in my eyes only magnified the demise

He has something planned for me.

Something that I have yet to meet.