Things I Should Have Said

Maybe I should have said more

Like the way I felt a new type of happy around you

Or the way I feared what was in store

It’s just something I can’t do

I can’t tell you how mad I felt

I can’t tell you how many tears fell from my eyes

I can’t describe how it feels when anger and sadness melt

And I can’t explain how hard I tried to avoid the lies

I wanted to ask why

Or just scream

I wanted you to see me cry

My stupidity became a stream

A stream of anger

That excited my body through the mascara running down my cheeks

Was I just a stranger

That you saw and thought was weak

I wish I had told you

That I wanted you to be a dream

But I didn’t want to see you

And I didn’t want to make a scene