I can't help but wonder,

What life would be like,

If I was happier.

I can't help but wonder,

How many friends I would have,

If I smiled everyday.

But why bother wondering,

If I can never be like that?

I can't help but hope,

That my life will be better,

When I'm once again happy.

I can't help but hope,

That I would Be more social,

When I genuinely smile.

But why bother hope,

When I can make it happen?

I listened to them,

And took a chance.

I listened to them,

And now I regret it.

I said some things,

I ruined my chance.

I don’t know why I took a risk,

But I did.

Now I will never know,

How they feel.

I wonder if they believe,

In second chances.

I wonder if they remember,

All that I said.

I took a chance,

And now I regret it.

If I would have kept quiet,

Maybe I would have a chance.

I learned some things,

Nothing important.

I made it awkward,

And now I regret it.

I wonder if I have a second chance,

Will I do it differently?

I want a second chance,

But how do I get it?

I took a chance,

And now I regret it.

No sleep for me,

At least not tonight.

Eyes wide open,

Until I see the sunlight.

No sleep for me,

It's messing with my brain.

Making me cranky,

With a lot of head pain.

No sleep for me,

At least not tonight.

Where has the time gone?

I have let myself go,

I never really lived only passed through.

Locked in my room,

With only paper and pen to keep me company.

Would you look at the time,

Where has it gone?