Better life

I can't help but wonder,

What life would be like,

If I was happier.

I can't help but wonder,

How many friends I would have,

If I smiled everyday.

But why bother wondering,

If I can never be like that?

I can't help but hope,

That my life will be better,

When I'm once again happy.

I can't help but hope,

That I would Be more social,

When I genuinely smile.

But why bother hope,

When I can make it happen?