Calibrated to lyrically seduce

Those blind hearted

The wrongfully amused

From the social bigotry's,

The chemically defused

Arachnophobia?

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Swindled into the web

where trapped with convictions amongst the dead and it's victims

The analytical submissions

alphabetically abandoned like multi-level subdivisions

Some parts are saved for the affliction of its anatomy addictions

Reincarnating memories of your movement

Only to display struggles of vindictive amusement

So into the eyes you will stare

Leaving the heart, just visually impaired

Glares of 4 pairs squared reflected in misconception

Eight ways of transparent perception

Developing within your mind, a venom obsession

Enhanced inerrant progressions slowly creep

Eternally trapped in cerebral defeat

Heart tissue artificially made

Patching the parts that inefficiently remain

Together

Stem cells aligned in uniformity, to cure the pain

The holes in our hearts that protect the love we contain

Like Japanese flowers, rearranged

Heart failure sustained

Confused, abused, bruised and misused

only satins amused

Drained and re-fused

How dare you disapprove

My aims bound to improve

From this distance

with enough consistence

Old memories relinquished

My love is the best

Life's a test, and god will attest that one day

My heart will be blessed

To live a life so pure of love, with my words I confess

Just patch me up please!

My hearts a mess!

My vision was blurred

Just three words for this old soul

Heart so big it broke the mold

Cold but controlled

The greatest yet

or so I'm told

I won't give up, too bold

I deserve to love again

watch me unfold.

Just patch me up please

Tenfold

All I wanted was for you to love me. Hold me, kiss me, and rearrange the stars with me. For better or worse, till death were we to part. Waking up to a fresh start, and your arms around me by dark... I waited and I waited and I waited. "Love me".

Like a nightmare before xmas, with only reality to show its existence. A heart so full of love and hope could only show so much persistence. Yet your reindeer games revealed enough resistance. "Love mee".

Like I missed the bus to the first day of school. Kissed, dismissed and played like a fool. All alone on a playground they call life with no rules. Hands sweating, heart racing, counting down the seconds of every class...just to run home to a house full of broken glass. "Love meee"!

Like the target behind the reticle of my scope, I never lost sight, until I lost hope. One confirmed, two confirmed, three confirmed...me. In "the shit" without a round to spare, I couldn't bare to suffer with defeat in the air. But all I could hear was "if you dare". So I gave you the stare, threw up a flair, and cried "this is where you show me you care". "Love meee"!!

Like any addiction I ever beat, my love for you was too deep. Not even Missdolly could compete. You were the highest I had ever been. I thought I was ready for the spin. Only to find out you were just a feminine specimen of gelatin, extracted from a shot of adrenaline, to infect my life with hate again....and yet I stayed. "Love meee!!!"

How many more times will it take? How many more demons will I create? When will this journey take me back home? How could this have gone so wrong? “stay strong". They say, "never give up" they rave. "All for one, and one for all”. Well look at me now! I listened, and now I have nothing at all. I sacrificed my everything for that one. Put that on my son. Nothing but the weak beat of a broken heart remains, and now itʼs clear. The love I long for is no where near.