The truth is I think you care

Even though you said you’re not there

I know there are things In the way

You know my love is here to stay

I would wait for you

Would you wait for me too

I know my heart is open

Even though I’m afraid of it getting broken

I don’t know what I’m supposed to do

My heart really aches for you

I could imagine a life with you

Although it really scares me too

I know we are running out of time

At the age of yours and mine

I hope you know I am not playing

My love for you is really staying

I could never hurt you at all

I would hold you up never let you fall

Smother you with my passion

Make you crazy in some fashion

I have a lot of fear of it all

I think we need to really talk when you call

As the water rushes over me

I can finally see

It was really just a dream

Everything was not as it seemed

A fleeting moment in time

You were never really mine

I wanted it to be true

But It was never there for you.

I am ready to let go

The coyote let me know

So good bye my sweet friend

For now this is the end

Weasel watching always there

Creepy creature hunting flair

Peaking curiosity looking my way

I always see you during the day

Things not always as they seem

There could be deception in the theme

Always sneaking peaking around

Brown fur short tail you astound

Looking for the hidden truth

You are a cunning little sleuth

Maybe you will show me the way

Maybe inspire me on day

Woke this morning with a song in my head

Feeling all my feelings with a sense of dread

Then you called and brightened my day

Is it a sign this love is here to stay

This connection seems almost spiritual

Although I think it may take a miracle

I feel an undeniable sadness in you

If only you knew how much it’s in me too

When upset the first person I think of is you

I hope talking to me makes you feel better too.

We have know each other for a very long time

Obviously seen in the child of yours and mine

I don’t know what happened long ago

But we had a love that wasn’t for show

I felt something this time on the phone

Felt a love you have never shown

I feel other’s energy and emotions

I felt yours with a great devotion

I think I feel an energy shift

Please don’t leave my heart adrift

Humming bird in flight

Comes to me with green reflecting light

I hear the buzzing in the air

Coming to me with your courageous flare

I just saw you zip by again to the brush

Why are you in such a rush

Are you an angel on display

Are you a message of hope one day

The sun reflects your vision of love

Were you sent from heavens above

Does purple attire attract you to me

I am not a flower as you can see

Fly away little friend I see

Fly away little bird be free

I sent it as a joke

The kiss just a poke

I said I was just having fun

But I think you came undone

Everything with you is always blue

Sometimes I wish I had a clue

When I close my eyes I see red

I think of you laying in bed

It’s always something illness pain

If these are lies what do you have to gain

How can I make you laugh smile

Why should I go that extra mile

I told you I cast a love spell

To make you love me as well

I said it to be funny

You didn’t even say it was punny

Why are you serious

It really makes me curious

What is wrong with you

What am I supposed to do

You said it but I heard your hesitation

I saw you on and off all night

I saw you in the early morning

Now you are nowhere in sight

Maybe it is a test to see if I will fall

Do you think I am desperate

I just let these thoughts go wild

My heart and my mind battle it all

I don't understand this thing we do

Back and forth I love you or not

I wish I knew if you think of me too

Pretending there is nothing here

Now I'm not waiting for you call

Not even sure I will answer at all

River dark and dreary running swiftly

Boat long rickety floating freely adrift

Smokes moldering hot cherry fire burning

Skin sizzling scorching coals fire stings

Old woman telling this is deaths shore

The signs awaken the fire in her soul

She gives a warning beware of flames

Make sure to see the light inside

Free your heart from your darkness

It was forever gone when eyes open

dream still exists in your minds eye

kissing the flame inside your soul

No more smoke your body free

Breathing the fresh breeze of life

You broke my heart way back when

Here I am letting you do it again

Why did I open this door I remember so well

Opened it wide and let you in

Only to feel broken again

You gave nothing Not a thing at all

I wish you to love me

Not something so small

When you say you will call

I waited knowing you wouldn’t at all

So, I called you not knowing if you would care

My emotions so raw I said nothing

How could I dare.

The fear of rejection the fear unknown

You would say you were sorry

I don’t think that was true

All I could do was worry…

for you

I don’t understand why I felt something there

You made me think you really care

My heart has been broken a million times

But with you the pain is more

Then all of them combined

My heart is heavy, but it will heal

I’m sure you think what’s the big deal

My tears will stop falling

I won’t be sad all the time

And I will stop calling

and let you go one last time.

If he came here and hugged me

I would probably cry

To feel so much love

I would feel very shy

If he came here and smiled

It would melt my heart

I would have so much to say

I wouldn’t know where to start

I would want to keep

Touching him to make sure he is real

Oh how wonderful that would feel.

Oh the passion I would feel

Would eat me alive

To look in his eyes

I don’t know how I would survive