Everyone talks everyone frets all about

But none of it confused me except you..

You're my doubt.

You pull on my heart strings I do a quick jig

But i'm so tired of being a puppet;

So tired of being mislead.

No it won't happen again, not a chance in this world;

You were never worth my time, surley that hurts.

Actually I hope that some of these word cut.

Painful deep like my feelings that you left.

I hate my life, I hate my life.

Is that your main thougtht?

A thougth deep down inside.

Why must I live?

Live in a world of this change

A lifetime of pain.

All the pain I feel comes from all that surrounds.

The answers have been here but theyve settle to never ungroud.

It's been here from the start,

So dont forget your mind

Slowly lean away with your heart.

Once its broken to pieces,

Shatter glass layers the floor

Each step cutting you a little bit deeper.

I want this to stop; oh I wish it would all end

Maybe peace would surround me once again.

I reread your letter and try to write back,

But the paper stays empty my mind mentally trapped.

There’s not enough room not enough space for my words,

To try to get through all the thoughts that still churn,

I wake up each day and I can’t help but question,

This wonderful God for all of my blessings.

You are the thing that I question the most,

Baby girl is this real or are you merely a ghost.

My prayers have been answered I’ve finally found my way,

My love only doubles with each breathe that I take.

With each passing day Im always thinking about you,

Enjoying the memories that I have of us two.

Each one I hold special because it is you I hold dear,

You are my only motivation through you there’s no fear.

You are my light in darkness on the darkest of days,

So when those days finally come; God please make her stay.

I only want you your the family I have,

The future I see; every day good or bad.

One day I see children and you as my wife,

And there will always be struggle that we have to fight.

When all’s said and done the one thing you should know,

Is that you can lean onto me i will not let you go.

I love you more than any of these words can explain,

I will keep trying to prove it because you’re worth all the numbness and pain.

Benevelent concern for the good of another

does not help you through the contritre that you suffer,

When you both your feeling were so far apart

you don't want to kithe that it's breaking your heart.

You try to let go and leave them behind

but it's harder than it seems I'm sure you may find,

It will get easier for you to bare

Before too long it's like they weren't even there.

It's time to move on and find a love right for you

things happen for a reaon they always do,

Soon you'll quit worrying and concern seems to fade

then you can look back at the family you've made.

You know that their safety is your only care

and you hope that they know you will alway be there,

It's funny how some things just seem to work

and shows that true love does not have to hurt.

I lie awake this night thinking of the past

reliving the moment that bore me an outcast,

Telling myself that I should just move on

but move on to where and with whom? I'm alone.

The night is dreary, there are no stars to shine

but I seek there beauty fore each one I devine,

I practice my patience as I await there peace

with each second passing my frustrations increase.

I keep them pushed down buried deep within

and I show my retraint when they rise once again,

But they just keep knocking away at my door

when I do release it's fury I shall live nevermore.

Do you see the gloom of the day that is near?

It is that day soon all things live in fear.

Metaphorically speaking or not I can't say

all can be done through life on that day.

Don't give up hope but rise on that night

rise with the abyss ignore your contrite,

They fight fire with fire use water instead

Overcome and determine salvation lies ahead.

Nobody knows the pain that I feel

it's really not something that I can reveal,

Because I can't express emotions that I don't comprehend

one day they will hurt me the next they're my friend.

I keep them bottled up to never be discovered

but then they come back and they're stronger than ever,

Where do I find serenity and peace

when the feelings of misery flow within me?

It is life that I fear not death or despair

at least throught thoe two the message is clear,

With life you have to make some predictions

and we all make mistakes though thats not our intentions.

In this life that we live this world is a maze

Choice is an illusion that we all try to embrace.

He stuck the broken pieces together

and seemed disappointed by the results,

All he sees around him is displeasure

until he found out whom he could consult.

There is no reason why he should resign

loving everything that life has to offer,

Living life until the end of time

trying to find out where he could prosper.

Unitl he determines the meaning of life

he has to decide where he should live,

Without as many people to cause him strife

All that is left is the seek and forgive.

Some days bring you sadness some days bring pain

much like the days when clouds bring rain,

But the feelings won't last nor will the storm

it will soon pass and leave beauty to form.

Don't be afraid to face whats ahead

don't be afraid of the thoughts in your head,

They are loud and clear then they are over

but it's all an illusions it's all just a cover.

You have to keep pushing

right through the storm,

you're stronger than you think

you are worthy of more.

I keep pushing forward to prolate with my life

But I have a quandary about some things that I write,

Because I am not sure what my future holds

I will adjust slightly slower to see what unfolds.

It may turn out good, though it may turn out bad,

But my life is not over and for that I am glad.

I have been given the time to change my ways

Now I can live true through my remainder of days.

I can assist the people that seek my care,

And I can prove to the others that we can be fair.

I can show everyone thats I’ve learned to do right,

Or I can mediate my peers to express their contrite.

Some people learn from their previous mistakes,

Or the choices that they’ve decided to make.

I am one of those people, I assume you must know,

But if you look at my future, do you see places I’ll go?