What's the point in trying anymore

When the people you trying for don't even care.

They don't even notice.

What's the point in putting on a show 

When they could care less whether you're happy or sad.

They don't even notice when you're upset or suicidal.

What's the point of giving up everything

When you never get anything back.

They don't care.

They don't notice.

What's the point in doing anything,

Breathing.

Smiling.

Living.

What's the point in any of it at all.

Why did you have to break my heart?

String my along and tear me apart.

Why didn't I see the signs?

Stay at home and believe your lies.

Why can't you see that I cared

And just want to go back to the times we shared?

Why did you have to go and switch up?

But as much as I try you don't want to make up.

Why did you have to lie to me?

Look at me and pretend to be what I need.

Why do I lay here and cry every night?

I guess I should have listened 

Because they all seem to be right

Why am I still sitting here hurt?

Because while your out not thinking of me,

I'm still here HeartBroken.

I don't know who I am anymore

I don't know what to do

All I know is I'm Ina dark place and I can seem to find a way out

I feel to lost and and unheard

So confused

I feel like I am drowning

Like my lungs are burning but I don't know how to stop it

I am drowning and no one can see me

I am drowning and no one around can notice a slight difference

I am drowning and yet they think I am fine

That this thing I feel so deep inside is just an act

I am so lost and so miserable that I can finally say that it's okay

That I'm used to it

I can say that it doesn't matter anymore

Even though I know that it does

I have become so good at lying to

myself

But even better at lying to everyone around me

I have become so good at hiding my true feelings

Keeping them locked up inside

I don't know who I am anymore

I can't recognize the girl in the mirror

And yet I'm okay with that.

Everyday it's the same old thing

Nothing's changed, nobody cares

I'm invisible

To them I'm happy

Because no one can see the true pain

Hidden behind my smile

They look at me and tell me to

Smile

To not tell people how I really feel

They say they'll take me

To a place I don't want to be

They talk behind my back

And always point out my flaws

I hide who I really am

I hide the pain and tears behind my smile

No one ever has time to listen

But it's not like I'd tell them anyway

They've all changed

My friends

My family

I don't know what to do

I hide in my room

So that I don't have to fake it

I put in a show

But sometimes I just want to give up

I will never be good enough

I eat away my pain

And take all the bullshit they say

I listen bad try to be obedient

I try hard but the don't understand

I just want to be seen

I just want to be heard

I want to be me...

But they will never see the depression hidden in my eyes

They don't know what it's like being me

They don't know what it's like to struggle through everything

They don't know how hard it is for me to get through the day

To hold back the tears

To stay focused

To force a smile that hurts every time I have to put it on

I'm like a clown

Covered in make up

Except I can't take it off...