Who am I?

I don't know who I am anymore

I don't know what to do

All I know is I'm Ina dark place and I can seem to find a way out

I feel to lost and and unheard

So confused

I feel like I am drowning

Like my lungs are burning but I don't know how to stop it

I am drowning and no one can see me

I am drowning and no one around can notice a slight difference

I am drowning and yet they think I am fine

That this thing I feel so deep inside is just an act

I am so lost and so miserable that I can finally say that it's okay

That I'm used to it

I can say that it doesn't matter anymore

Even though I know that it does

I have become so good at lying to

myself

But even better at lying to everyone around me

I have become so good at hiding my true feelings

Keeping them locked up inside

I don't know who I am anymore

I can't recognize the girl in the mirror

And yet I'm okay with that.