Here I am crying

wishing I were dying

What's the point in trying

anymore...

The sun doesn't shine

because you aren't mine

I can say that I'm just fine

but I'm not....

I think about you

and all you do ....

if you only knew

what I'm going through....

I said I felt nothing

and nothing meant everything at the time

you had crossed he line

but...I'm fine

why does it feel this way

to be broken

like your heart was cut wide open

to not sleep

because the pain is so deep

it hurts in ways words can barely explain

makes me feel like I'm going insane

I smile but its fake

and at night I wonder if your still awake

I pretend you still care

I pretend you'll always be there

but I need to go

and I just want you to know

that I loved you

and I hope you loved me too.

If only I could feel your warmth again

If I could count to ten

And you'd be here

You could wipe away every single tear

You could make me laugh

And complete my other half

I could tell you that I'm yours

You could tell me that you're mine

Rain or shine

I could tell you that I love you

And you could say you love me too

No matter what we went through

We could listen to our songs

And redress the wrongs

If only we could...

But according to you that doesn't mean we should

And maybe you're right

Maybe I should just turn off the light

The light that is my love.

It hurt

Its hard to describe

But I could if I tried

Like a petal pulled from

a flower

Like I had lost all power

Like pain

It made me go insane

Like a waste of time

But I still said "I'm fine"

Like I was shattered in pieces

And like my heartbeat decreases

There is no solution

All I feel is confusion

When I feel anything at all

Or sometimes I feel anxiety

Like I'm about to fall

But there's nothing to do

Because he'll never love me too....

Again

And that's the truth.

It's been years

Since I've cried so many tears

We were happy

Or so I thought

And I loved you quite a lot

But you gave up

And decided to breakup

We stayed friends

But you know how that all ends

No more smiles

No more hugs

So I'm resorting to the drugs

It might be an addiction

But it takes away my affliction

Makes me forget

When I'm feeling upset or a hint of regret

Things aren't how they used to be

Cant you see

That I'm falling apart

While you're falling asleep.