Closing my eyes, it’s the sensation of the train rattling as it lurches along the tracks. The gentle rocking lulling me to sleep while the soft chatter of others act as white noise. It’s the feeling of being tickled as the grass fields embrace me. Perhaps even the terrifying moment when an insect or arachnid crawls up my arm but is soon followed by laughter. It’s the feeling of comfortably sinking into a large chair placed by a window as the suns rays gently cover my face, warming me to my very core. And once I adjust to the warm temperature, I become drowsy with serenity, appreciating the rare peace in our ever moving world.

It’s listening to the dog barking downstairs, telling me his is alive and well. It may also be the grin I shoot my friends as we pass each other in the chaotic corridor between classes. After school, it’s the rhythmic flipping of pages as the paper slides between my finger tips, threatening to tear if not treated gently. Curled up on top of my self designated bean bag, I clutch the book in my hands, oblivious to reality. But every so often, the sound of muffled footsteps will cut through the fog and I’ll look up smiling, knowing there are others who enjoy ”traveling” just as much as I do.

But most importantly I believe I give myself the most happiness and have the ability to turn my day from an everlasting night to a sunny day with clear skies. There may be clouds or rainfall in the distance but at this moment in time, there is only now and Now is what makes me happy.

Devotion is the one thing I can do well

But for you, I would do better

Because you are forever

The smile must never leave your lips

Just as your joyful mask can never slip

Your open arms should be forever welcoming

Though I'm sure the pain is ever deafening

I promise it's okay to shed a tear

I promise your soul won't tear

But when tomorrow comes

And I hear those drums

What will you become?

Please.

Please, I beg of you

Don't let your heart forever be ill

As you stand suddenly so still

Ignore the pressure on your maw

For here I stand beside you

Loyal to the bone

Ready to catch you should you ever fall

But then I saw

I saw the reality that life is but a word

That may not exist for all

Still this lonely boat rocks

While the clocks continue to tock

Tomorrow will be here soon

And what can I say?

I believe in love and hate

That they sound just the same

For this was your destiny

To be dancing in your tears that made up the rain

To be surrounded by thorns and moving horns

I loved you still

Expected you to stay with me

Yet there you were

Dreaming a forever dream, you had left me

My thoughts on you never ceased

For my fantasies were still with you

And how can I sleep when I'm away from you

So I beg of these moving horns

The ones that gave us such burning words

Scatter me like fragments

For all I need is you

Let me stay by your side

In your ashy underworld

Because now as the rain continues to pour

Despite you smiling from under your hood

With lips that I could kiss

I now know there is no forever more