Tears are falling and I won't stop calling

You are everything I have and everything I need

So please don't leave

I lied to protect my heart

I lied to keep you at my side

You're no longer there because of it though

So am I a terrible person for wanting to keep you

Like when I asked if it was true I didn't mean to accuse

I feel abused but not by you

I can't control everything he does

But I still care about you

We've lost so much do we want to lose more

Lets reset the clock

Go back in time and see what we can find

I feel like I'm losing my mind

I miss you 

The beating of your heart in your chest

It's how I could sleep

Your arms holding me closer and when I would struggle you'd pull me in closer

I'd wake up scared and you'd be there

There wasn't a battle to fight anymore I could finally breath

So please lets take our chance because we won't forever

Forgive my mistakes and help me fix what I've done

Think of me this night and go with what your heart wants

I do love you and I'll respect your decision

Don't look at me like that, you left. You told me you were sorry. I wanted you but I couldn't tell you. Last thing I remember were the tears that slowly flowed down your pale cheeks as I said "Goodbye". I walked away hoping you would come after me, but you didn't.

"I'm broken and still not getting better. What kind of person would leave someone after they gave them everything. Maybe it wasn't your fault. I don't like blaming you but you could have tried harder. I'm so angry now. You'll get this text. You will read it, but I know you won't reply to it. It's killing me."

I never thought you would take your own life over it. This time I was alone. You weren't coming back.

"Why'd you leave me to feel so alone and useless? Why did you do it?"

I texted you even though this time, I knew I wouldn't get a reply back. You were gone and I couldn't help but think that it was my fault.

"Come back please come back!"

I had no idea what I was doing I was fighting someone who wasn't there.

"You won't read this and you won't reply, because you decided to end your fight. Goodbye."

I visit your grave on the 4th of every month. I repeat the same words as I set three white roses down on your tome. "I'm forever sorry. Stay Safe."

It was February but I guess we would never marry.

But do you remember the sweet smell of December.

For the embers floated away as members of the army.

You never wanted to harm me.

But you were just so charming.

Jayden my body aches.

You were always so cunning and smart.

A piece of art for my heart.

The part you played could not be replaced.

You were my home base.

I could go on and on but not yet.

So lets just forget and hold on to how we met.

I was vulnerable to you and you took advantage of that. One night alone and you were still in the zone. I gave it to you with no regret, but we didn't see what was coming next. If you only would put your phone down to save your breath. Nine months go by in a blink of an eye. I hold her tight and begin to tell her stories of what once was my life.

He lied to me, he couldn't even look me in the face.

Was it so hard for him to do that.

I just wanted him to tell me you loved me.

Even if it's fake.

Maybe I could learn to live a lie.

Honestly I don't care like I used to.

Not even close to what it was.

You leave me at noon and don't come back till midnight.

You don't tell me where you go.

I'm left alone.

I can't understand anything you're saying.

You make no sense to me.

I smell it on your breath.

But I say nothing.

I don't wonder what you do when you're gone.

My feelings are to strong.

I tell you I love you.

But get no response.

I pretend though as my feelings are fake.

It seems as though they don't exist.

I hate the way I feel about you.