It's like wondering in a forest

Knowing there's no way out

Walking an one way road to hell

An endless lonely hike to your death

As if you were the last person on earth

No dramatic painful story 

No happy endings

Just the sound of wind blowing through tree branches

A peaceful but lonely walk

No more pain but also no more love

It's the price you pay

For wishing to disappear

The night is still young

And we're dancing

Under the starlight

All alone tonight

With our broken hearts

And faded smiles

I think we'll make it

Somehow.

Mummy said to go hide in the attic and not come out until she said so. There are these weird people walking around outside. They look kind of sick and they have glowing red eyes! I've never seen them in my neighborhood before but one of them kind of looks like my friend Ellie. It's so boring up here and I wish I could go outside and meet these new people! Mummy baked my favorite chocolate chip cookies yesterday. Do you think they would be my friend if I gave them one? 

WAIT I think I hear Mummy screaming! I'll be right back!

It plays in my head over and over

Like a broken record on repeat

We were an almost

But didn't make it

The words you left me with

Etched into my memory

Painfully on replay 

Every moment of my waking

Dedicated to you

As if my mind

Has forgotten

How to not love you

Child at heart they say

Curious mind and adventurous soul

With dreams that touch the stars

Sleepless heart and restless mind

Millions of thoughts running

Wild and free they say

Dancing in the moon light

Hair tangled with the wind

Young and reckless

Falling in love with a storm

Alone they say

Scar ridden soul and shattered heart

Tears streaming black streaks

Trying to find misplaced trust

Never to love again

Sometimes I want to forget it all

I want to stop the memories

I want to stop recognizing you

In the halls

And at cafes

I want to take away all that we were

And I want to stop remembering

The emptiness in your eyes tells a story

Of an endless war

For happiness and peace

But I think we all forgot

Why we were standing here together

The pain became unbearable

All reasoning disappeared

Hoping that you could stand here alone

I bid my goodbyes

Engulfed into loneliness

I wish I never knew a world like this.

~ inspired by the song Konna Sekai from the anime Akame Ga Kill

I know I don't need you

I just want you every time I see you

Because you look so wild and beautiful

I want to be close to you

Because you look so untouchable

I want you because of the butterflies in my stomach

And the smile that brushes across my face

But I don't need you 

Because you drag me down

I don't need you

Because you don't ease my loneliness

And most of all

I don't need you

Because I don't love you.

Let's fake it till we make it

Let's pretend you don't give me butterflies

Let's avoid all the what if's 

And just acknowledge the fact that we weren't meant to be anything.

Let me believe in these lies

so that I can fake my happiness 

And pretend everything's alright

So that one day

I'll make it

Without you