I could never find the words for a suicide note

My insanity is not explainable in

Any number of syllables and

I thought it would be better to

leave questions unanswered than

Answer imperfectly, and

risk leaving with a lie though

It's something I'm

good at

Blaming scars on the

Dog like

He's the one who

Carved 'hate' into my

Stomach

I couldn't find the words for my

Suicide note because how do you

Explain dropping a mug in the bathtub to see just

How deep glass

Cuts

glass is sharper than you

think

I've got the scar for

insurance reasons

though it didn't hurt

really

it's the dull things

that ache the

longest

you are built with

the ability to

break yourself

your nails

shaped to give

friction burns

to satisfy every inch of

self loathing

it stings more

later the

adrenaline isn't

enough to make you

feel real for long.