its the first work day of this new year

it feels special and filled with changes yet very still.

i dont see the sun nor the moon at this timing. im just cruising along what im used to.

maybe im so used to it, the colors i used to see around me faded.

A recall; i think i started seeing things in colors and symbols when i first held bulbasaur?

she has so many shades of green, from the leafy ones to the minty ones, it fed my mind so much.

as with soft toys, they fade but she still is so vibrant and warm.

from fabric right down to holding her.

nothing much i can do but i pray for safety everyday, all day.

and to not forget to tell my mom i love her:

yknow i kind of wish that i can send the patterns and colors i have in my head right to her. wouldn’t it be nice?

at that moment, i felt so welcomed and assured.

i saw the colors of the sun, reminiscent of an egg yolk (which mommy makes every morning for a quick breakfast when my sister and i were still young) and accompanied by spreads of fuchsias.

the sun often hides from me because its a little shy.

don’t hide, please.

come out and play with me.

i’ll look you straight in the eye like no one has ever did and ask you to be my companion for this journey.

as seven pm got closer, the street lights came out and drove the sun away.

however, i was still on the bus chasing the sun as it burned brightly and eventually summoned the moon to leave her luminous kisses over my face.

at that point, i don’t see the sun anymore.

come back.

i miss you already.