If I died tomorrow

I'd want you to know

you taught me a lot.

How to be myself,

how to love,

how to find happiness and appreciation for the little things.

You make me look at the world differently

what you gave me

was a taste of love

a small tongue drop

to try it

to see what it feels like.

that small taste gave me an addiction

I am addicted to the feeling

I need love

I need you

I'm fine without you

I don't need you

but I'd rather have you 

because now I'm happy

but with you

I could be the happiest

the happiest I've ever been

you make me who I need to be

and for some reason

I can't do that on my own

they tell us we need to feel pain

to understand happiness

but why is hurting us the only way to make us understand

why do you teach us what we don't want to be

and make it hurt so badly

in the meantime

they say things get better

as time goes on

but I still feel broken

more and more broken

every day

Why would anyone hate

when there is so much love in the world

every opportunity granted upon you

gives you the chance to be cruel

or to spread kindness

and change the world

one step at a time

-kindness

Love someone for who they are

not who you want them to be

My problem is

I love the wrong people

For I see the potential they have

to be spectacular

I don't separate their potential

and my fantasy of who they should be

with the nightmare they actually are

I crave different

I crave a person

someone who speaks my language

who I can learn with

laugh with

cry with

love with

someone who gets me

who appreciates me for what I am

and not what they want me to be

I crave special

I crave you