I am dead, but i go on . The light that illuminates from God is so very bright. I cry out for Jesus. I will need his help if i want to talk to God. I say Thank you to both God the father and his son. What a truly loving and magnificent God we have. I say I am sorry and ask him for forgiveness for all of my wrong doings. I then tell Jesus I love him and thank him for dying on the cross for me so i can talk to the father. My sins are forgiven and i am full of his forever Love. I am at awe of his greatness . I don't speak anymore. I just want to sing his praises.

Away for three weeks.

Finally home.

Happy .

Mower is broke.

Grass 4 feet tall.

A sudden head coId.

Ants on the counter.

Tick on thigh.

Happy.

Finally Home.

Being seperated from your Husband is a difficult thing. If someone hated , or strongly disliked them, then why not just divorce him. So there is something obviously keeping you together. Yes, religion and strong belief in God and the marriage vows. For me, the passion and drive keep me going to work towards being back in my marriage and where we belong, together.

When I meet someone, a stranger, or a co-worker, and I begin to talk about my life, it never fails that someone will say "You are the strongest person I ever met." To me, I don't feel the strongest sometimes. Just because you live life the best you can, no matter how many losses you have, or Traumas. I can say that there was a Survivor's group regarding loosing someone you love to Suicide, that I started and was the facilitator for 15+ years. Both of my brothers took their own lives at different times in my life. I didn't know what to do with all the trauma, So I started a support group.

Russ was my late husband and he kept the secret that his daughter was not his true blood, her mother was inseminated due to the fact that he could not give his first wife any children. Russ promised her that he would not say a word to anyone until she was 18, due to they agreed that was the right age to tell her. To me, that is honorable.