I dreamed moderately

I wanted something achievable

Something simple

I wanted love

I wanted children

I didn't need money

Or power

I had no lofty ambition

I only wanted what I was promised

My body could give

A life inside me

An unbreakable bond

Unlike any other

Love and love in return

Unconditional, unshakable

I wanted to feel that

But more so

I wanted to give it

I don't love anything the way I love children

And I could have them

I was promised

Just wait

And it will happen

But my body

My body

My body is broken

So quickly

My dreams died so quickly

A week

I wasn't even ready for kids yet

But my body was preemptive

Cysts on both sides

Removed

Only slivers left

Of ovaries and dreams

Love is Gravity                                                   Lust is tape

Without it                                                         A temporary stickiness

You are untethered,                                           A fleeting attraction

Free-floating,                                                     It glues you together

Drifting apart                                                    And feels permanent 

                                                                         Till the edges start to peel

With it

You are inexorably,                                            Tape can be useful

inexhausably,                                                     When a temporary connection

attracted                                                            Is all that's needed

Your body                                                         But it won't hold you forever

Your gaze 

Your soul

It's incredibly difficult to break free

But not impossible

After all,

we've been to the moon

Please don't remember this

Sitting outside

Alone

School let out hours ago

And you've been waiting

I got here as soon as I could 

Please don't remember this

Heat baking us both

Stuck on the side of the road

Barely working car

Finally done in

Please don't remember this

Rubbing tired eyes

Early,

Early

In the morning

Up at 4 

To catch the bus

Please don't remember this

A can of spaghettios

Split between us

You're hungry

I am too

And this is all I have to offer

I keep track

Of all my inadequacies 

Wedged between fingers and toes

And thoughts

That could be

Otherwise

Better employed

Brows furrow

Your eyes narrow in displeasure

I feel you closing off

I want to take them back

Impossible

They're yours now

I can only move forward

More and more

Pile on to cover up

It doesn't work

The world has changed

And I can't change it back