The Constant

Procrastination is what I do best

For when you are on my mind, why do anything remotely productive

I recall the words spoken to me ever so easily

Too easily

I fear your truths were merely camouflaged lies

We never did kiss, but the want was there

You laughed and looked away

Sitting across from each other we shared our secrets

Not just shits and giggles, but closets opening to reveal our tattered skeletons

The night grew cold and your body moved closer to mine

You slid your fingers into place with my own

Our body heat combined melted the rest of the world away

The spell had already overtaken me, but you fought the urge

I should have known

I should have seen the doubt

The fear

Your hesitant eyes

Oblivious love

This sickness inside of me making my bones brittle and my skin sheer

Muscles too fragile and organs too weak and shriveled to ask you for answers

Three words will never be said aloud

I refuse to make it real

I will continue to sit across from you and imagine the taste of your soul

A smooth river of honey

It sticks to my lips and drips down my chin

I wipe it away ever so delicately

For to waste a drop would be a sin greater than no other

But this is just a dream

A wish

A figment of my imagination

Unrequited

Unresponsive

Unresolved

My thoughts are left to dance alone in the dark

They wander through a deep forest never truly finding their way home

Suffocating on sap and pricked by pine needles

Mother Nature is a bitch

She deceives as you deceive

Your sweet nectar is so misleading

You claim your knees grow weak, yet you walked away from me just fine

You claim you can barely speak, yet you converse with them all

I remember we spoke of our stories

The ones that define us

We sorted through our baggage and traded clothes

Promises were made to be broken

Dreams were dreamt to be crushed

And still, I think of you

The sun will rise and set

The moon will fall

The sky will fade to white

And still, I will think of you

I know you don’t think of me

You keep busy and have more important ideas to bring to life

As for me, I will continue to do what I do best

For when you are on my mind, why do anything remotely productive