Losing silently

One, two, three...

I spot the red sea

Four, five, six...

I'm a broken mess you can't fix

Seven, eight, ten...

Looks like I've done it again

I gave into voices in my head

Believing everything they said

Breaking skin creating soon to be scars

Just for short relief making me see stars

But it doesn't last forever

The fear creeps up on me and I say never

Never again but it's all a lie

One that no one can spy

Because they don't realise how broken I am

And I'm caught in a jam

It gets harder...

Too hard....