everything is so blurry. 

i lost my favorite shoes again. 

maybe a little bit of my soul too.

i keep falling into the arms of the wrong man. 

why am i continuously doing this to myself?

am i crying out for you,

or am i trying to push you away?

none of this is good.

i miss you

maybe my mother was right. 

maybe it's been you all along, 

maybe we're both self destructing because we are no longer listening to our hearts.

i think i need you.

i think i need myself more. 

              but you are me. i am you. 

                     what the fuck am i supposed to do?