Nightmare

I'm awake

Though I wish I was asleep

These nightmares used to only be at night

Now...

They haunt me in broad daylight

One of these days I hope when I go to sleep I never wake up

Then it will just be cold darkness that surrounds me

Not the hot embers of pain and suffering

I just want this nightmare to end

The pills are waiting

Ready to help me stay asleep

I've counted them countless times

Every single one screaming for me to swallow it

Promising me everything will be ok when I do

I can't tell if these nightmares want me to kill my self

Or stay alive to struggle through this life

As of right now...

I just want to sleep

At least I wish I could but the nightmares

These nightmares that are supposed to happen while you're sleeping

Are always there

When I wake up

As I go to bed

Even while I'm sleeping

I can never escape

I can't wait until all of this is over

One way or another