Nothing Helps Anymore

The therapy I been going to for 3 years

the hospital and treatment centers I have been locked up in 

the list of 100 coping skills I look at everyday 

the coping skills that used to work 

or the ones I was told would work 

just don't help anymore 

I have been trying for years 

I have been working on myself for years 

I have been suffering even longer 

I have been on every pill 

I am on so many pills right now 

six or seven in the morning 

eight or nine at night 

natural vitamins and other medications 

and none of it makes a difference 

the cutting helps me most of the time 

helps to stop me from ending it 

but not even the kiss of a razor 

keeps the thoughts away 

nothing is helping me anymore 

I have been suffering for way to long 

and it's never gonna end 

the pain is way too much 

to all those who care about me 

I am sorry 

but please understand 

I can't do it anymore 

I am so sorry