Hymn of Emotional Privilege

I get down on myself for not being a perfect friend

And then i dont know how to get you to talk to me again

I replay it all, a year in commotion

And remind myself its a privilege to feel this emotion

You gave me the love you needed, so then no one else stacked up

You were insistent even when i said its enough

You didnt die fast, a suicide in slow motion

I have to remember its a privilege to feel this emotion

For years I thought wrong, that I didnt have it in me

I couldn't help but miss the forest and see just the 1 tree

My shores are connected but im alone like the ocean

Dawning on me like a sunrise, Its a privilege to feel this emotion

Turning it all into rage I was an anger alchemist

In a red prison and trying to be an agonist

I no longer get worked up when I feel lonesome

Because its a privilege to feel this emotion

As the world exists and becomes less soft

I will continue to smile and welcome things I am not

It cant defeat us, together we could be the chosen

Because its a privilege to feel this emotion

Its a complex idea, a twisting of belief

That when under duress, you must stand on your own feet

But i look around and see arms extended and frozen

Im not alone, Its a privilege to feel this emotion