That Man is A Monster

If I cry I’m a baby

If I’m mad I’m the problem

Every mistake that you make

It’s cause of me, yeah I’m the problem

Don’t want me to have a boyfriend

Are you really being protective

Or does something inside you know

When it comes to being a father you’re defective

Constantly putting your hands on me

Even if I tell you NO

I don’t care if you’re my father

You usually act like you’re my foe

I was never daddy’s little girl

I’ve always cared for my mom

Ask yourself whose the reason for my sad and twisted heart

I just need someone

To vent to who’d actually listen

To hold me when I cry

Instead of trying to fix things

I hate physical touch

Because when I got it it was always rough

I always feel alone

Anxiety twinning as my clone

It’s just a phase you say

Just be happy

You’re to young to know about that

You don’t really feel crappy

I build myself up

Every time you bring me down

But it’s all just a front

I feel as pretty as the “dancing clown”

Depression is a thing

You said you had it yourself

So why is mine different

Why don’t you care that I’m not doing swell

You ignore me for months

Then apologize like it‘s good

I’m sick of walking on eggshells

To make you happy

You sure have a way

Of making your family feel crappy

You’re just like your dad

An insult that cuts deep

You were supposed to love and protect me

Not make me sad for being me

“I pay the bills and feed you”

So what comes after that

Now I know what not to be

My whole life I’ve had front row seats

I hope and pray my future lover

Will cherish me like my mother

That he would go from heaven and back for me

That he loves me unconditionally

Sometimes I wonder if hate is possible

When I look into your manipulative face

My definition of a monster

Is the man you became